I'm so sorry for all who are suffering at the hands of family members. I am too, the emotion pain and turmoil is indescribable. We assume our family will love us, treat us properly, be there for us and we do the same, yet so many people are seperated from family. The bible says to honor our mother and father, its the only commandment that comes with a promise....a long life. I tried for 20 years to have a relationship with my mom, the latter years I began to put up boundaries to protect myself, I have been nothing short of a slave my entire life, helping raise my siblings, looking after my mom, being loyal, being controlled and abused. My mom influences my siblings against me, and now my kids too, its too long to go into!, its toxic, brutal, and soul destroying. I never stop yearning for a loving family, when I see families out together, I feel so alone in the world, silence is hard, being ignored at christmas, birthdays, being excluded is hard. It seems unnatural, and the pain is there everyday, yet we have to go on, somehow someway. I am slowly learning how to nurture myself, I was neglected as a child, and gave and gave, so much was expected of me, I was never 'allowed' to look after myself, I'm learning. My prayers are with all those who suffer similar, Windblade I know your plight, I'm so glad you are looking after yourself. I pray God puts people in our lives that can love and support us, we are wired to be in relationship with others. God Bless and lets take each day as it comes and pray for the love of Jesus to sustain us.