I don't know if any of you recall one of my previous posts, where I discussed how my brother has accused me of faking Fibromyalgia and of having back surgery that I didn't need. Never mind that I was in so much pain from such a large herniation ("Large, measuring roughly 12mm AP by 18mm transverse by 22mm craniocaudal maximum dimension, left posterolateral disc extrusion at L4-5 causing severe left lateral recess stenosis and left neural foraminal stenosis") that every single doctor I saw after my MRI exclaimed, "Wow, that's big!", that I couldn't walk/stand for more than five minutes at a time without wanting to cry (I'm not a crier) in pain. Never mind that I'd lost feeling in my left foot which was causing a limp, and that I was starting to experience numbness in my right foot, which would mean that not only could I not walk, I wouldn't have even been able to drive. I'm the only driver in my household. Now, I'm being accused of being a drug addict because I take Oxycodone for both my FM and my remaining back pain. The surgery was successful in that the numbness was fixed, but I still have a fair amount of low back pain, in addition to L5-S1 disk problems, and the occasional return of some of the same horrible sciatica and thigh pain that I had before the surgery. Of course, just the FM is enough pain to warrant my use of pain meds, but yes, I do also have back problems. Anyway, I've been harassed for months, culminating in my drama queen sister-in-law (an alcoholic/drug addict - a couple of years ago my brother *insisted* that my partner and I take his wife off his hands THAT DAY while she went through withdrawal...) saying that I've hit "rock bottom". More quotes: "And yes, he was one of the kids in the family (not the only one) that notices you are high everytime we see you"; "First and foremost, Opioid (oxicodone, oxicontin, methadone are only use for a short period of time. Here is what NFA writes what the treatments are for fibromyalgia. No [partner's name deleted here] you are not a Doctor, you just read a lot. You have been taking opioids for over 10 years [not true - she's been taking them regularly for maybe two years, she tried Oxycontin maybe six years ago, but it made her nauseous so she had to stop taking it] and convinced Nancy to do the same. Nancy has been on opioids for 3 or 4 years." No one had to convince me to take pain meds, I was BEGGING for them when I herniated my disk. The MD in my chiro's office wouldn't give me any because I passed his little leg strength test (I'm one of those people with genetically strong legs - I had little muscular legs as a kid), but after he saw the results of my MRI, he was shocked at the size of the herniation and immediately prescribed pain meds. I was in terrible disk pain for seven months before I had my surgery, and my recovery didn't go as well as I'd hoped, so I went to a pain management doctor and I was diagnosed with FM. In a follow-up visit with my (world renowned - he's taught all over the world) back surgeon, I told him about my FM diagnosis and he said, "Yeah, that makes sense." I've been seeing the board certified pain management doctor for 2.5 years now. In that time, I've tried Neurontin (didn't work), Lyrica (my feet swelled so much I couldn't get my shoes on - I have pictures), Robaxin (doesn't work very well on me), MS Contin (doesn't work AT ALL for me), Dilaudid (doesn't work at all for me), Methadone (affected my bladder and I had to stop taking it within 30 days), Soma (helps my back spasms), Reboxetine (in a clinical trial - it helped, but the company cancelled the trial before I was able to get an adjustable dosage), Oxycontin (works fine, but I can't afford it), Fentanyl patches (would be my preference, but I can't afford it), and lastly (I may have forgotten a couple) the Oxycodone that I'm on right now. Wait, I found another lovely tidbit. "Forget the family Nancy, everyone that knows you and is in contact with you knows you have a drug problem and they are CONCERNED about it. You have hit bottom. Yes, I am an alcoholic and the first step to healing is to admit you have a problem. YOU HAVE A PROBLEM AND IT WILL DESTROY YOU. This is coming from CONCERN not ABUSE. If you were completely rid of all of the drugs that are in your body you would totally agree." Oh, and this is the very latest, "There is a fibromyalgia clinic here in Las Vegas. I would think you would want to go there." We all know about those Fibro clinics and the absolute fortune they require you pay for their "supplements". (Here's someone's personal experience, and I know I've read some similar stories here - http://disc.yourwebapps.com/discussion.cgi?disc=172576;article=5676 I see my board certified pain management doctor once a month, have to fill out a lengthy form once a month regarding every single med I take, whether it's prescription or over the counter, I'm subject to surprise drug tests, not to mention I have never required an early refill, never "lost" a prescription, and have a very good relationship with the same pharmacists that fill my prescriptions every single month. Like most of you know, my pain meds don't make me "high", they work on my pain alone. No one has EVER seen me "high" on my pain meds - I'm the exact same person no matter what time of day, no matter when I last took my meds, except sometimes I'm in more pain than other times. It's an absolute lie that anyone has seen me with glazed eyes. So, my question is this - have any of you had to go through this with your families? I mean, this crazy woman is saying that I need to go to rehab. I would be laughed out of rehab. I don't abuse my meds. Hell, I don't even drink. I offered to let my mother come with me to my next doctor's appointment, but I don't know how else to combat these vicious lies. Obviously, because I've been sicker the last couple of years, I've spent more time at home because I'm exhausted. These attacks don't help my stress level, which is already sky high because I lost my job last year and haven't been able to find another one like it where I can work from home and work flexible hours. My house is in foreclosure, I need to file for bankruptcy, and I'm sick and in pain, yet I have to deal with family members attacking me. They haven't even seen me since Xmas, yet they seem to believe they're experts on my condition. Apparently, if you don't show up to family breakfast on Saturday mornings (I feel like crap early in the morning, I often feel nauseous, and I don't think my body needs to be forced to keep other people's hours), they feel it's okay to accuse you of things they know nothing about. So, how do you refute false accusations of being a drug addict? Would letters from all of my doctors & pharmacists be acceptable? Frankly, I think my doctors would feel pretty insulted that they're not smart enough to catch on to my devious methods of hiding my, uh, stupors, I guess. Every single person who has seen me in the past 3.5 years has seen me on pain meds. I am exactly the same, normal, at all times. I do happen to have a high tolerance for pain medication, but nevertheless, different people have different tolerances. My partner takes less than half of my dosage, yet no one would ever know that either of us are on pain meds. Lyrica, however, exhausted me and made me fall asleep sitting up in the bathroom. Yes, Lyrica, the "miracle" Fibro drug. Blech. Hated it. I was extra exhausted, my feet were balloons, AND it didn't work.