Hi. I have CFIDS and FM-or something more like rheumatoid arthritis. I also suffer from depression and panic attacks. I've been on disability for 10 years and am SO frustrated because I could -and would like to- work a part time job. But, I can't because then I'll lose my benefits. My family just took away all it's financial support, putting me in a `sink or swim' situation, thinking that this will force me to get a job, get off disability...and that this will help my self-esteem and actually make me feel better in the long run. I'm So damn angry with them, and so tired of explaining why I refuse to give up the only stable income/health insurance I have...and that my illness may not be bad all the time...but sometimes it IS too bad to work. Please...any advice... How can I explain to my family that doing any old job WON'T be good for my self-esteem...and isn't the answer to curing me of CFIDS? Also, why I need to keep the cushion of support disability benefits give me? One upset girl Thanks.