I am searching for a direction to go! I can't seem to do any type of housework...such as vaccuming, bending, etc., or I get muscles spams so bad that I can barely stand upright to get to a chair! I can sit awhile...go numb. Then, I stand, but I can't stand for long. I don't have a weight problem, but my hips are in terrible pain! I dread to see my grandchildren come over, because I can't be there for them, and I know that they don't understand! I am still on Flextra, Keterolac injections, and klonopin (for sleep). I have always worked so hard and loved it. It seems I can do less and less now. I went to my rhuemy a few days back (been going to him for over a year)and he seems to be changing towards me. I can't tolerate any of the antidepressants, and he seems irritated that I can't take them! If I could just find a understanding doc! It seems some people don't believe that I am in pain, which can REALLY be depressing. I have always tried to smile and not show how bad I hurt. I go forward...push, and then collapse! I just feel like know one understands where I am. I am sorry if I have gone on too much...just had to ask if anyone else feels this way?