I don’t know if it’s my depression, the weather we are having, or if I’m just very bored……but I feel like I need to do something to change my life for the better. I know I have been truly blessed. I have a wonderful husband, 3 beautiful children who are thriving, a nice home, a really good job, extended family that I love more than anything, and really great friends. I probably appear to have “everything” to those on the outside. But lately, I have been feeling very empty and down. I don’t feel like I have been living up to my full potential – I feel like I need to make a change, but also am afraid to trust my instincts. Obviously, I can’t just up and quit my job. I make very good money, and we can’t survive without both incomes. I have been here 12 years, but I really can’t stand my job. It doesn’t bring me any job or sense of accomplishment. In fact, just the opposite. I get treated like such garbage…..and it has become very apparent that I will never climb any higher than I am right now. I have worked far too hard to stay right where I am. But unfortunately, I happen to have very strong morals, integrity and self-respect. And I am not going to sacrifice those things just to climb a few rungs up the corporate ladder. No….just not worth it. And I know I’m better than that. I know I’m not too old to go back to school, but I don’t have the time right now. I am working full-time and trying to raise my kids – I am lucky if I get 5 hours of sleep a night anymore with everything I have going on. And I know that raising my children in a healthy loving environment; making sure they are taken care of and raised to be responsible adults, will be the most important job I ever do, and the most difficult. But I still can’t stop feeling like there is something “more” for me, if that makes sense. I don’t feel like I am doing everything I was meant to be. Perhaps I have been where I was and gotten to where I am now to prepare me for something bigger…I don’t know. Or maybe, I am just so exhausted, physically and mentally, that I need to sleep for about a month. Or………..maybe I should just shut up and be happy the way things are. I just keep looking for some kind of sign that I need to move forward with a different plan. Thanks for allowing me to write about these things here. I am so pleased that I have a place like this to talk about how I feel. I know what others would say if I ever brought this up in conversation in my life……..that’s why I keep this stuff to myself. Thanks for listening.