I am new to this group. I've been trying to cope with depression on my own for the past 8 or so years. I have 3 beautiful daughters who live pretty far away from me.(not by choice) They live with their father in South Carolina. I live in Illinois with my father. My mother is deceased. I also suffer from schizoaffective symptoms. My mood fluctuates and I have sleep disturbances. Sometimes, I hear voices. I take alot of psychotrophic medication. My children are not old enough to understand why I am not able to care for them. They are 15, 13, and 10. Someday, I will be able to tell them about my illnesses. Right now, I would give anything to be able to see them. I miss them so much. Unfortunately, I do not have the funds to make the trip to SC right now. Hopefully, that will change. I must believe.