I am going thru so much..have been for over 3 years, and I am finding myself spiritually, physically, emotionally weak. I have begun to feel defeated..and I know the Lord is allowing all these trials for a reason, but I am tired of hearing.He only allows as much as we can handle....I know I can not handle it and I do truly give it to HIM..but I just need to know I have prayers going up for me. I will be undergoing more surgery for my back within the next few weeks..it is a revision on the first surgery they did last July, and another disc needs to be done also. I have fibro, and I am so worried that even though these surgery's are done, this is no guarntee that I will no longer need pain meds..or that it will do any good. There are very real complications to this second surgery, and I am fearful...I have a young son who has special needs, and I worry about him and my husband should anything happen to me. But..on the advise of 3 neuro surgeons this revision NEEDS to be done. I know I am breaking all the rules about trusting my Saviour..but friends..I am so tired...please pray for me...Thank you.