i am sorry from the bottom of my heart to all of you that answered me and those that did not....i had no idea i could check the answers to my posta by going to my profile...i am constantly scrolling thru the posts!!!!! i read all the instructions in the beginning but who can remember it all....i too have gotten a ton of knowledge from this board just by reading what everyone writes in...and i don,t answer them all either!!! so i am guilty......i will stay and learn, and try to contribute as much as possible.....i never filled out my profile because i didn't think anyone reads it or if they do, that it mattered....i do so appreciate all of you...and i know what it is to have this dd...and the awful dragon reared its ugly head again...we all go thru times that are bad and sad and mad......and i am now GLAD to have all of you...try and understand the hurt though when you think noone in the whole wide world is listening to you....i have a wonderful sweetie but even he needs a break from this dd sometimes...i have been in bed so long recently, and had been out....just need to push myself mentally if i can..i never want a pity party, none of us do!!!!!sooooooooothanks to all of you...you are my FMily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!