Fever for 10 mos in trouble emotionally

Discussion in 'Spirituality/Worship' started by Elisa, Apr 26, 2008.

  1. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    I am trying very hard to keep praying and stay in faith.

    I need your help. I am battling a fever for over 10 mos now am very weak and am having a very hard time. I am also have episodes of amnesia or memory loss. The stress is the highest I have ever known and today at the grocery store I found things that I do not remember placing in my cart (and my Dad was with me helping).

    My anxiety is sky high and I am very very depressed and can't seem to come out of it.

    I have been to many many doctors and they just don't know.

    I am worried that I am losing all hope and I am a champion of hope...

    I just can't see my way out...can anyone help?

    God Bless,

  2. Springfling

    Springfling New Member

    I will say a prayer that you have the strength to get through this rough time. That you don't give up and stay positive.

    You have given hope to so many and I pray that you keep that same hope for yourself.

    You will get through this, just hang in there! Prayers are a strong medicine!
  3. poets

    poets Member

    Hi Elisa,

    I'm saying a special prayer for you tonight. Just remember that God is able.

    In troubling times I always find comfort in Matthew 11:28,29,& 30. Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yolk is easy and my burden is light.

  4. xphile

    xphile New Member

    Dear Heavenly Father,

    Elisa has a need that even if the doctors can't help her with it we know that You can. If You can raise the dead and heal the blind then I don't doubt You can heal Elisa's fever, depression, and anxiety. I bind you Satan to leave Elisa alone! There is a Higher Power than you and he will ultimately prevail. Thanks Lord for letting us rely on you. In Christ's holy name, Amen

  5. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Hi Patti, Springfling, LittleBlueStem, Mega and Adam,

    First, God Bless each of your for your kind-heartedness!

    As I read each of your messages I felt hope and loving support - thank you so so much. I read them again and again to help give me strength.

    You are so special to me and your words mean so much. God has answered my prayers with your words - each of you helped me in a special way.

    I feel God's presence in your words and voices. Thank you so much for helping me feel better and much much less alone.

    God Bless,


    [This Message was Edited on 04/28/2008]
  6. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Hi Pain,

    Your beautiful prayer is so much appreciated. I cried. I am hurting so bad today that your words gave me new hope.

    I am overcome by my fear lately and am so weak. Today it is hard in all ways - fever is 99.9 and heart is racing - my doctor says may be thyroid issues -who knows - I have waited so long but I'm not sure I can withstand much more...I just can't seem to hold on. I pray for help.

    I am so grateful for your caring and consoling words - the world hasn't been very kind lately and I am so happy to see your prayers here - and for me. It was a great surprise!

    God Bless You,


  7. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Thanks so much Hanginthere for your kind and consoling words.

    I am struggling more than I ever have. I have had more than 3 days of tachycardia and I am so scared - so your words mean alot to me and help give me strength and build my faith in God and people.

    The medical community can be brutal and it hurts when they act uncaring. I know most of us have experienced this here...

    Thank you so so much for your kind heart and ears that heard God ask for my help!

    God Bless You,

  8. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Thank you so much for your kind encouragement.

    I am feeling so scared - I have tachycardia - over 100 beats a minute - even when I am calm/doing nothing.

    I feel anxious either on top of it or because of it - just don't know. I feel so helpless. I have reached out to so many docs and they have no idea or they don't hear me or something...

    My family is truly tired of me - and I don't blame them. My parents live about 20 min from me and they are all I have. But they deserve a better life - without a sick and sad daughter. I am at a deep deep loss right now - just am not sure I can hang on - so I hang on to all your prayers and try hard to believe that there will be help.

    This heart beat thing on top of a fever of 10 mos - is too much. Am I just a weak person - is this common? I just don't know anymore. The isolation from being this sick is so bad for me or anyone.

    My Mom is all about positive thinking - and she believes I am just not positive. I think others think I am not in God's favor - I guess I feel that way sometimes - even though it's wrong. I feel like so many believe that I don't pray hard enough or the right way. But I talk with God all the time - sharing with Him how I feel. He loves us all - but I feel so abandoned...

    I feel so small. Has anyone felt like this?

    I look foward to anyone's spiritual mentoring or help with my faith. I need to see thing clearly.

    God Bless You All,

    [This Message was Edited on 05/12/2008]
  9. windblade

    windblade Active Member

    You are definitely not a weak person! Having CFS and FM are SO, SO difficult to live with. It's hard for people to imagine what it's like - how frightening that the Dr's really don't know what to do, and so many medical people are callous, or indifferent.

    It's easy to have the theory that thinking positive thoughts will cure everybody,or if we had enough faith, we wouldn't be sick. But I noticed that all the people in my life that held that view were healthy!

    Throughout history, so many great believers had illnesses and sufferings throughout their lives. I'm thinking of Joni Eareckson Tada who is a quadrapalegic; and Amy Carmichael who wrote 'Rose from Briar'. She was a missionary doing great work, when she had an accident, and was bedridden, and in great pain.

    But she believed that God had not taken her off the spiritual battlefield, but just moved her to a different place as a spiritual warrior.

    There are so many books of this kind that have really helped me. Maybe you could find some, to take away that false guilt and condemnation.

    So many people here have suffered from the same thing, being falsely condemned. It is so painful!

    I'm joining in with everyone's prayers for God to make great changes in your life. He knows what you need, and will never abandon you.

    We all need each other to stay encouraged!

    Praying for God to bless you greatly,
  10. windblade

    windblade Active Member

    Just reading your post again, for the depression, and anxiety, have you tried anti-depressants and tranquilizers?

    I take both, and they are such a big help. Even if you only take them for awhile. If stress is causing your heart to race, they could calm your body down.

  11. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Thank you so much for your kindness.

    I an trying and praying - will type more when things improve.

    God Bless You,

  12. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Hi LittleBlueStem,

    You are so kind and always help me so so much and I am grateful for your thoughts...

    I will try both. Have you had luck with one or both?

    Thanks you for helping me see/find another option for some relief!

    God Bless You LittleBlueStem!

  13. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Hi Patti!

    Thank you so much for your message.

    I always look here because it is such an encouraging place to come to...

    I do take St John's Wort - and am trying GABA.

    I am very frustrated and discouraged... like many of us I have been sick for 12 yrs. The fever and high heart rate and weakness - have made me lose ground so fast.

    I have lab tests that are abnormal but the docs still seem uninterested - I am not sure what I am going to do.

    I have had two thyroid tests both super low - .02 and .20 TSH with normal being .5 to 5.5 - I am normally around 2.0.

    I walk around with a fever of 100 or more and a heart rate of 100-150 - both are NOT normal for me.

    The thyroid doctor I saw basically said "yes the tests are abnormal but if I can't find the cause, I am done." And of course see a psychiatrist to help you deal with this prolonged illness...

    I guess I just don't understand what doctors do help with.

    I am in shock in a way - just stunned by the fever - I've had it 11 mos now and then when the other symptoms started - the fast hear rate and horrendous anxiety, weakness - it was too much for me to process...

    The doctor that found the thyroid problem, a rheumatologist, told me about it at my appt (my Father attended with me. Then when I called her to ask for a referral to a specialist she said I misunderstood and that I didn't have a thyroid problem. Then she wrote a letter to my internist/gp and told him of the multiple findings - the thyroid/hyperthyroidism and an elevated ANA.

    I only know about the letter because my internist gave it to me.

    So I am lost - but I am listening to voices of hope like yours.

    The suffering is so great that I feel like I could lose my mind - I am severely irritable and feel like I am going to explode. I never yell at my dog and now that seems like all I do.

    Everyone keeps saying to me "Figure it out" - "Go to another doctor" - but I feel like they just couldn't care less no matter what they find on the lab tests.

    Truly they, the docs, seem bored with me. I'm a big yawn. No help. No answers. And I am treading water...with the Lord at my side. I know He is so sad too. I just wish I understood WHY?

    I thank you and am grateful for your voice...I am so alone and scared that your imput really helps me feel less so.

    I can hardly remember me...but God can.

    God Bless You Patti!


    [This Message was Edited on 05/28/2008]
  14. Elisa

    Elisa Member


    They are sending reports to each other - no treatment from anyone...

    I don't know what I am doing wrong? Do you have any ideas?

  15. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Hi All,

    I am having an extra tough day today. Add a headache and problems speaking - the stutter is back - I think it is the pressure and severe stress.

    I am so sensitive - always have been. My parents, who understandably, are sick of my situation, often yell at me because I can't get better. They think, as many do, that I just haven't seen the "right doctor." I have seen so many I can barely stand another one.

    I know I need to keep trying - but it's always the same - no help, no answers.

    My Mom calls me a quitter and my Dad feels my thermometers must be wrong - no matter how many I buy. I guess almost everyone think they could handle this better and find the solution.

    I have even seen an endocrinologist - who admits the lab work is "abnormal" - but says he has no direction - "He is done." Except for the psychiatrist friend he wants me to see - cause of the stress...It is so bizarre - I feel like I'm in a bad bad movie.

    It was hard before the temp and abnormal lab tests - because my labs were normal - so they just think you are nuts.But now I feel nuts because the lab work is NOT normal and they still have no interest in treating me or exploring or referring me to someone who will.

    Has this happened to anyone else...it feels unreal.

    I have asked the rheumatologist to explain the ANA and she says "who knows"...

    I research the docs before I go sometimes for months - and make sure they are credentialed - like board certified in their speciality area etc.

    How do i keep going - I am just so weak and all is an effort and with my parents yelling so much - it's aweful. I know it must be frustrating - but I am overwhelmed and there are no easy answers and everyone feels panicky - including me - because of the severity of the symptoms and how long they have lasted....

    God Bless,


    [This Message was Edited on 05/29/2008]
  16. momof27

    momof27 New Member

  17. Elisa

    Elisa Member

    Momof27 - Goodness what do you mean?

  18. momof27

    momof27 New Member

  19. momof27

    momof27 New Member

    the fevers were there for over two months, I talked to a nurse and she said if somthing is poisen to your system it could cause the fever along with the fm and cfs/me we could never really know if I was really feed the rat poisen, however my hair fell out and I was looking at death, now I'm back to my norm with the suffering with the fm cfs/me but feel millions better since "She" moved out