This is turning into a total nightmare for me. I have never been this tired and depressed. I just drag myself through the day and try not to think about wanting to die. I can't even cook a simple meal anymore, I am so weak. My diet has changed since I started going, because I started craving sweets like crazy, and everything I eat makes me sicker. They said my candida levels are practically nonexistant, and that my hyperthyroid is probably giving me these cravings... And I am so frustrated with this illness and with my diet restrictions that I don't care how sick something will make me if I eat it, and even the times I try my best to fight it and not give in, I always end up sucking down a bowl of maple syrup or a bag of potato chips. They upped my calcium and magnesium, and I think that helped. Also, some iron and selenium. Then I started on the DGL they reccomended, and started getting pain for the first time ever starting the very next day after I tried it. I'm starting to think I'm majorly allergic to a lot of things. I wish I didn't have to eat anything or take pills and could just live on air like those monks do. I am so depressed that I don't really care much what happens to me, and FFC doc doesn't seem to understand what's going on... just to see that thyroid specialist and don't take something if I feel it is bad for me. I don't see the specialist till March, and EVERYTHING I put in my body, even "healthy" foods, feels like it is bad for me, and all my pills too... I'm going to try a holistic doc soon if dad will help me find one (I've wasted all his money on this, and he's self-employed and not feeling well himself and I have no idea how he is paying for everything - I feel SO guilty) because I am absolutely desperate to get some real help.