I cant believe it. I rang an old friend who I know has HIV. When we last spoke, he talked of how he had wanted to take his own life but he managed to get to a place of acceptance of his illness. Well, I thought I would ring him to talk about his process of acceptance - because I am struggling with that myself. So, we had been talking for about 30 minutes and I had explained my entire situation to him, including when I got sick with a viral infection, how I initially recovered and then relapsed in Dec 05. I explained in detail the physical aspects of CFS - how sick I feel, the extent of the fatigue, nausea, headaches, body pain, low blood pressure, dizziness, numbness in my body, chronic insomnia etc etc And then, he says to me "Well Michelle, our situations are quite different because what you are dealing with is a mental illness, and I have a physical illness." WHAT?!?!? Sometimes I just want to scream.