Any of us that are dealing with depression because of these DD's know it can be grueling enough and only made worse by people and docs who push anti-d's on us for whatever reason. If we suffer from it, we know all the ways that it has been brought to our attention...Some of us take them, some like me, choose not to... My belief is that I have enough wrong with me, symptoms caused by the unknown with no cure in sight and certainly an anti-d may help me with my sleep and/or my attitude but having taken them in the past, did absolutely NOTHING for my chronic pain, inflammation and ulcerative colitis...I refuse to add more 'toxins' to the mix and have tried very hard to avoid taking any further meds period...Not to say I may not add them in the very near future...Have been going thru more stuff with grieving the loss of a loved one along with suffering with IBD and just being diagnosed with Crohn's last week... By no means, am I getting on a high-horse and spouting for my own amusement...I research constantly, like many of you and when I come across something that ticks me off, I feel like shouting it so the world GETS IT...Since this has become my lil world lately, I would like to share this new development with all of you who are interested... About a month ago, I ran acroos an article in the magazine that comes in the Sunday paper...Lorraine Bracco (from Sopranos fame) touting some anti-d and telling her story of how she was sooooooooooooo depressed in her 'LOST YEAR' and whatever drug she took straightened her out...Do we also remember the commercial??? It annoyed me!!! I just came from the Verizon home page and was surprised to see link to an article about her having an attraction to the real estate market...Something guided me to read it... It seems in 1999, she couldn't pay her bills, owed over $2million and couldn't find work...She then stepped in Soprano poop and became a star...Now owing the last $50,000 to her bankruptcy lawyers, she did not bring up the depression issue in this article... SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, if I read between the lines correctly, here is what I gather...Poor woman got over-extended, was losing everything she owned and couldn't handle it...Goes to the doc crying and complaining about her terrible situation and is prescribed an anti-d (they make the problems go away, ya know)...She landed a job, paid her bills, no more problems right? Right! She did not suffer with chronic illness, she had bills she couldn't pay!!!She was not in pain constantly, she couldn't just dive in her pool for a midnight swim cause the bill collectors took the water out of it! She wasn't struggling with fatigue because of an unknown monster that drained the life out of her, her cell phone was just turned off for non-payment! Now I may be a little nit-picky here and be offering up scenarios which might be off but Hey I suffer with these DD's, I am entitled to some mistakes from the fog I am in, which btw, the anti-d's didn't help either... I am just fed up with all the people who think they can help us and CAN'T and all the docs who play God when they don't have a clue about what we are going thru and I am soooooooooooooo fed up with these pharmaceutical cos making a fortune because of all the symptoms we have... I know there are others who feel like I do and I am glad I have the forum to get it out...For those who take certain meds and they help you, I am happy for you and hope that they continue to help you get thru these dd's and live a better quality of life...But for those who are just taking things because their doc recommends them, do your research, know that drugs can have ill-effects and take control of your own destiny... I may be suffering with depression along with everything else, and I may lose these battles in the long run, but I will not allow a spokesperson (a well paid one)and the pharmaceutical cos to use me as a guinea pig and a paycheck while I am fighting this battle of my lifetime... IT's JUST NOT RIGHT!!!!!