Have been gradually disintegrating health wise-i mentioned elsewhere that things have deterioriated so much that i cram in what i can during work week and barricade myself to rest for 2 days-work is non negotiable and hours average 10+ daily plus commuting, by friday I'm chewing pain meds, cant eat, pain wakes me nightly. basically i now live on pills to be able to work and handle a 2 way commute. i barely make it thru a day's work, evening meetings have doubled, extra projects thrown at me...i was carrying a folding cane because too ashamed to use it near residence or office-that doesnt leave many other places does it LOL, but really, its so difficult now that i found myself preparing what to say to rhuematologist because I cant go on like this. i complain but actually have a high tolerance for abuse, having come from a family of addicts (drugs, mine is food), and religoius abuse issues-those of you who know what 'submission' which is not the same as submissive, know how to suck up pain to survive. I'm outta sucks---its that bad. i dont mind meds if they're allowing a functional life-i take meds and no longer consider be able to crawl to subway, crawl up/down staircases and spending 10 hours at a computer only to crawl back home, being functional. the cats feel ignored, i cant get down on the floor to play and they dont like me sitting in one place throwing things around-we're not freakin puppies they meow at me. My 18 lb long hair is so wired, i tried clipping his nails and he hissed HISSED at me before swiping me....he felt so bad he came by to head butt me later. okay, so now that i've wasted your time...the reason for posting was disability. i was ready to bring up the subject, but dr. said 'you look terrible.' she said making a case for disability isnt even a question in my case...but when i mentioned most of my worst symptoms seemed to be from the FM, she said: Its better not to mention FM yes, you read that, its a verbatim quote and yes i've read that some patients here have received disability, but it seems that as insurance/health care and government paws are putting more fingerprints on our lives and health care that obtaining benefits will become more difficult...just something to think about. Look at all your options in terms of what to bring in and leave out, it may not effect current benefit application but a couple of years from now, you want a solid medically sound disability case for future reviews.