My mother died just over two weeks ago and as I have just returned home from her out of town funeral, the family chaos continues. I thought my family would take a breather after the funeral, but I've just been informed that her husband wants to dispose of all her clothes, etc. and clean out her home-office. It's just hurt me more. What's the rush and I know he isn't going to listen to me. Just seems so ridiculous. Not that her things don't need to be dealt with, but right away, two weeks after she died. It seems to me he wants to be rid of all memory of her. I find her things comforting. I was told to come go through her things and take what I wanted. I'm not up to or ready to do that. After a clergy member from my church suggested I let my father go ahead with the funeral plans he wanted out of town, and in a cemetry that is a tourist attraction, to avoid further stress to me and my health, again there is insanity taking place and things occurring that I think are wrong. As far as the funeral was concerned it wasn't what I thought she deserved and what I needed as someone of faith. My brother gave a eulogy with made-up facts in it. My mother and I were closest in my immediate family and I miss her horribly. I'm not sure what I will do without her. She cared about me and genuinely loved me. She was far from perfect, but I knew she was there for me. Especially since I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and became disabled from it. Her death and the ensuing family drama may be the beginning of the end for me, I'm afraid. It just adds to my hurt. I can't seem to get much peace, time to grieve, or much rest. The fighting and insanity thrown at me just adds to the loss of my Mom. It's so wrong. I miss my Mom so much and I still need her very much. Words can't really even describe how I feel. She was the one in our family who was able to deal with the family nonsense. I'm hurting more than I've ever hurt before. How do people get through this? Some don't I imagine.