I am so tired of dealing with life. I have heard all the pep talks and given alot of the pep talks myself. Tonight they just aren't cutting it. I am out of work again. I am the person who is on top of everything. Never had any problems on my job. I have been fired twice in the last year. The first one I am not going to lose sleep over. It was just bogus and everyone knew it at the time. But the second time, was just because I couldn't keep my mind clear to learn a new job with a new company. My poor husband is working two jobs to put food on the table and we are steadily falling behind. I can't even get a job at McDonald's because I am over qualified. I had decided that this was the year that I was going to get my sh*t together. I was finally going to make me a priority. I was going to have weight loss surgery (please, keep your opinions to yourself on this one), start excercising more and get better. It's a little hard to accomplish all this when you don't have insurance or money for the deductibles. I am too tired to have our regular "Friday Night Date", hurt too bad to go to bed. Tonight Life Sucks.