It's been awhile since I've posted and I've really no excuse except this DD. I've just been trying to research, research because I want so badly to heal myself and get on with my life. I am on disability because of this, my life as I knew it is over and I'm in greiving for that. Which depresses me, which in turn aggravates or intensifies the pain, which depresses me..round and round I go. I get so tired and I can't exist like this. I can't get down on the floor and play with my toddler grandson; I can't plan dates with my friends or if I do and push myself, I'm down for days. Sometimes my legs can't seem to support my body and it hurts to walk, but I need to walk. I am on prozac, lisinipril, unithroid, wear a cpap machine every night and i've been doing this for months..no relief..just facing pain. I try to brush away this illness and try to recapture who I was, but my body won't let me. What has helped others? Or am I just really sorry for myself?