I've had so much continuos pain. I just want to give up sometimes. But I know my son needs a mother, even if she is worthless. The part where I said i think i'm becoming paranoid, I keep thinking maybe it's something really fatal, like cancer, that I have. I hurt so much and all over how could we tell the difference in the FM and something else. you know i just hurt all over all the way to the bone. and my headaches are worse than they have ever been. And if it wasn't for my son needing me I believe I would blow my brains out, what little I have. But he seems to worship me and I can't be that selfish. I love him so very much. I love my family and husband too but they would make it o.k. without me. You guys know how I feel. But thanks for letting me vent.