i come on here ever so often,but i drop out for awhile,then when life is more than i can almost bare i come back on,for some feedback,i`d appreciate any thing you all could help me with. i`m not new to fibro,i`ve had it 5 years for sure.maybe a few more that i had before i was diagnosed,in 2000. i`m just having a REAL bad time now,my symptoms are worse than they been in awhile;i don`t wnt to have to go on more painkilllers or switch back to oxycontin which was a great painkiller but i was a zombie,i think i was on too much so now i`m on percocet10/325 2 every 4 hours. also does anybody that are already on antidepressant-effexor is mine, are you still depressed like i am? well i was beginning to start feeling better when a few months ago my son was sentenced to 15 years in prison;as if thats not bad enough. now don`t laugh because i know everybody has heard this from inmates: my son really is NOT GUILTY. i want go into it,we`ve appealed it,and he has to serve a year or more until his appeal comes up. well i know you`re going to say that stress from that is whats happening. but to be truthful,i was kind of like this before that happened. for seveal weeks i`ll have medium days, sometimes i`ve even went in to a sort of remission where i feel almost like my old self. those are few and far between;but oh how good it feels to have those days,sparse as they are. well i just had to vent but if anyone of you can empathize with me,or been through the same thing,tell me what ;if anything helps? ps. my depression is so bad i stay in the bed most of the time;also the real bad days like today.i`d say i spend 18 out of 24 hours in bed,at least while my husband and son is away. i try to stay up a few hours at night with them but like right now i`m heading for bed,so my burning back can touch the cool sheets. thanks,and i also need all your Prayers1!!!!!!!