I know I am seriously depressed and suffer from anxiety and fibromyalgia realated disorders....etc. I have a serious problem being so frightened that it stymies me into doing little to help myself. I am now beginning to think that I am clearly insane and all I would really like to do is to medicate myself and just lay around sleeping with the tv on. There is no money, no home , and I am separated by distance from my family, but they all have their own mental and physical illnesses. I have a temporary roof over my head being a hand maiden for an extremely erratic and tempermental man. It is a high price to pay, but I am so stressed that I seem incapable of making any clear choices. People are sick of me and I am sick of myself. I just cannot imagine getting lower than I am.