I just wanted to post an update....I haven't been online in quite awhile. I've been so busy with everything lately. Well, I am nearly 31 weeks along in my pregnancy, and I have to say, this has been really, really hard on me. I don't really have anyone to talk to, and since this is my 4th baby, no one really seems to care about it at all. No one ever asks me how I am feeling or how I am handling things. I think that has been the hardest part of all. To start with, my rheumatologist wrote me off when I told him I was pregnant. When I saw him last, I was only about 2 months along. He got very flustered and told me he doesn't really treat pregnant women. At the time, he told to just stop all meds, and to come back in 8 months. And that was it. Once again, I felt very betrayed by the medical profession. He gave me NOTHING at all to help me with this; in fact, he acted rather disgusted that I would just go and get pregnant while he was in the middle of trying to treat me for FMS. My OBGYN hasn't been much help either with the FMS, because she doesn't know how to treat it. She has just been monitoring me and the baby and offers no advice or help on how to deal with this. So it has been very rough. I wasn't dx'ed with FMS until AFTER my 3rd child was born. I had no idea how hard this was really going to be on me physically, mentally, emotionally, ect.... And I have searched and searched for info online and in books and I have really come up with nothing. It has gotten rather depressing. I am having an EXTREMELY difficult time at work. My bosses never, ever ask me how I am doing. In fact, they have INCREASED my workload. Just last week, they told me there is a "project" that I must complete in the next month, and they basically have told me that my job depends on getting this done. It is something that is impossible for me to complete. And I have told them that. So then they told me that I would need to work overtime from 7:30 am to 5:30 pm and also on Saturdays. I just cannot do it. I have 3 kids at home who are involved in sports and they have schoolwork and....I just can't do it. Plus 2 of my kids got sick and I was struck down a couple weeks ago with a horrible cold that had me up all night coughing, every night for a week. I was getting so scared because the cough was causing all kinds of muscle spasms in my stomach, and I was terrified it was harming the baby in some way. Once I got over that, I got a stomach virus that my daughter had, and had a fever and I could barely walk or move for 2 days. But I still managed to go to work and somehow get through those few horrible days. Then I was told I was anemic and needed to take more iron which really upsets my stomach more. And to top all of that off, one of our cars broke down. The engine blew on it and it might cost $4000 to fix it. We somehow managed this past week with only one car, but it left me to run my kids to school and pick them up b/c my dh had no car and had to rely on his friend to drive him everywhere. I am just so frustrated with life right now..........seriously. All seems to be ok and fine with the baby, thank God. Back in my 20th week, I had an ultrasound, and they told me the placenta was very low, and they wanted to watch it to make sure it moved or it could become dangerous for me and the baby. I had the same problem with my 3rd baby, but it eventually moved on it's own. This time, my Dr wanted to wait until the 3rd trimester to check it again, so I have been a nervous wreck about this. I go in on Monday for another ultrasound to make sure everything is ok. I can only pray it is. And I'm excited to see the baby and see how it looks now. I only have 2 months to go! I have horrible heartburn....horrible. It wakes me up at night and I have been eating Tums like candy. I can't wait for the baby to drop so I can get some relief with that, because it is even hard to eat now, it's so bad. Well, I guess it sounds like things aren't going so well. But I am still so very excited to finally see my baby and find out if it's a boy or girl. I had such beautiful pregnancies before...I just wish this one could have been a little easier. I know though, that it will all have been worth it the moment I see this little one. I just have so much to do and not a lot of time left. I am just praying for a little time where I have no pain and can just relax in peace. That is the part that has been the most upsetting for me, I think. This is supposed to be such a joyous time, and instead I am having to deal with constant pain and exhaustion. And like I said in the beginning, I have no one to turn to. No one seems to care or understand. Some days I just feel like giving up hope.