I have read on this board before, but never posted. This is my problem. I have FM along with anxiety/panic attacks and depression. Before all this, I never, ever missed going to Church on Sunday. Now, I have a terribly guilty conscience about not going, and tried again this weekend. But when I go, I do not get anything out of it. It seems as though the lights bother me, all the people bother me, my pain bothers me, etc. etc. and I just can't wait to get out of there. Does anyone else have this problem, and what do (did) you do about it? I know God understands if I can't go, but I sometimes wonder if it is the particular Church and maybe I should try going elsewhere? I do try to sit in the very back so the anxiety isn't so bad, but it doesn't seem to help, and if I get nothing of value from it, is it worth going? I also spend the rest of the day in bed with terrible pain and fatigue, and cannot seem to do anything else. Yet, there is this guilt. I really need help with this. Thanks!