I've come here tonight and its all changed!! I've been away dealing with major changes in my life, I've barely had the faculties to get through these last weeks and months. I give thanks to the Lord for His hand in my life. As most of my friends here know, I went through 8 years of struggle with my ex husband after my divorce, vicious, abusive, cruel and calculating misendevours went on and on for years, custody battles, my movements restricted, mind games with my 3 kids,...you name it. It was destroying me. It went to trial in october and I got victory in that I could finally move away from the small town I was trapped in, I was vindicated by the courts, the truth was revealed, I had prayed for years to be released from the hell I was living, all I wanted was to get on with my life and be a mother to my children. God in His goodness has opened many doors since the breakthrough, but it didn't work out the way I wanted..God had another plan. I had prayed for a husband, a decent man, a best friend daily for all those years, it was a huge desire in my heart to love and be loved, that and to be a mother, that was my dream.. and freedom too. I met the man God had destined for me in september, He wasn't someone that I would have chosen but God knew he was just what I needed!!! He pursued me no end and finally I fell in love! I got the freedom to move... but lost 2 of my kids, they wanted to stay in their home town. I got engaged 15th january and moved shortly after, I had not a cent, but God put this man in my life and he made it happen. I have been struggling so bad with grief, the dream I had was not Gods plan for me. My son and I are getting through everyday adapting to the changes. I'm working through major anxiety attacks, my fiance works away 2 weeks at a time. I know it will all work out, I am blessed, I am so in love and thankful for my soulmate. I;m just finding it hard, I know God makes no mistakes and we are all where we are supposed to be, it just hurts for awhile. I am seeking Jesus all through the day and night for help in my emotions, it will take time and I'm believing for restoration and the best years are yet to come. So thats me, God Bless you all. Love Cindy.