I'm not handling this well. I'm not strong enough to be in pain every day. I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Between the fibro dx and the realization that I cannot stay in my marriage, I'm a mess. I contacted a lawyer today and have an appt on monday. He seemed very nice. My husband is out of town for a bit. I considered telling him while he's away, but decided to wait until after I speak to the lawyer. I called a local domestic abuse hotline and was told that the kind of abuse he's doing is valid. Emotional and mental abuse is real. So, that's good. I can't believe this is my life. I can't believe a person can be happy and hurt so bad and feel on fire.