I am so far away from God and feel I can not get back to Him. I was saved at age 21 but have always questioned, did I do everything right, did I pray right, was there something I didn't repent of, and I'm too embarrassed to go to someone and ask. So I hope, since no one here really knows me I can ask you and get some answers. I know the plan of salvation, for about 15 years I was in church anytime the doors were open. I was kicked out of the church after I ask my abusive to leave. I could not bring myself to tell the pastor "everything" that was going on. The pastor told me if I didn't take my ex back I would be brought before the church and kicked out, which they did. Since then I have had a block about getting back in church. I know I need to get back in fellowship with God, but where do I start? What do I do? Sorry this Is long but I need some help.