Quick background. Got divorced, dealt with that, threw myself into my work. Got fired because I wouldn't agree to do something illegal. Could not find a job. Person I was dating slept with my best friend. Couldn't pay my rent. My parents told me to come home, we had never had a good relationship. I had left my hometown many years ago. Within a month, they made me leave after maxing out credit cards to move everything back. Survived on the charity of a few people. I did get a job which I am grateful for even though it isn't what I want to be doing. I was always physically and socially active. I got a place and I never leave it. I work from home and never go out. Every day I wake up and count the hours until I can sleep again. Tried medication, had no effect. Gone to therapy, no breakthrough. Have always been a positive person but have nothing left in my heart or in my soul. If anyone has a fresh perspective, I would love to hear it.