Hi guys, I am really in a pickle and not sure what to do. I have had FM/MFM for about 9 years, it took me almost 4 years to get anyone to give me adequate pain relief which is when I was referred to my pain clinic and a wonderful caring Dr. who really listened to me. Problem is that over the last 1-2 years he has really changed, I don't know if he is getting pressure from government, too many patients or what. He is VERY aware of my pain and that I have tried everything under the sun to not need pain meds but I can not function w/out them. He used to have no problems w/prescribing much higher doses than what I take now of oxy and MSIR and would throw in Kadian during flares. I personally cut out the Kadian (felt it was useless) and have cut my oxy and MSIR to much lower doses than truthfully would make me most comfortable because he started acting weird...each month he would say things like "so, are you ready to cut another..." When I tell him that I am at the minimum I can handle it's like it goes in one ear and out the other. This past month he tried to convince me that going on suboxone would be a good idea, when I told him I wanted to do research and came back w/info that clearly states that suboxone is NOT for pain relief, he just shook it off (I felt like he was trying to trick me). I have been in a terrible flare for the past three months and and feeling tempted to order drugs online because he is not listening and will not up my meds at all only wants to decrease. When I asked him to refill my provigil this month he said "so what are you going to give up for it" meaning some pain pill, when I told him nothing he was disappointed in me. I'm sorry for such a long post but I am at my wits end. I don't want to Dr. shop or order illegal and possibly dangerous drugs off the internet but my Dr. has changed and is no longer listening to me. (I used to take 9, 20 mgs oxy's per day, 9-10 msir, and up to 4 100 mg Kadian, along w/ my other meds now I am at 6 20 mg oxys and 6 msir, no Kadian and yt it is still not enough for him) I am afraid to go to another Dr. because my current doc says "no one feels that FM patients should be on opiates" even though he has seen me w/out and how much they improved my life, but I can not go on like this any longer. Any Advice??? Please.... I'm desperate. I am bed ridden in pain and no fun to be around for friends and family, I don't want the holidays to be like this.