Hello everyone, I am feeling very lonely and isolated from CFS/FMS. I got sick 10 years ago, and although my CFS has improved, my life has not.(FMS is worse now) I feel so stuck, while everyone is moving on. I also feel so stuck mentally in my past and my social life that I used to have, and all of the money I used to make. Life was very good! Anywhere I would go in my town or around, I would know so many people, and was so well liked, and had lots of friends. After I got ill, I had to relocate to another state(where I grew up). I lost contact with everyone, even friends that I had for over 10 years(from both states). Guess in the beginning I was so ill and bedridden for years, and depressed, they all 'cut me off'. It is so hard to 'move foward' with not much money, and not working, and limited health. I have been able to work a few times part time, then was laid off from my job. (and cannot find another part time job that suits my hours for this illness, due to this horrible economy) I did manage to make one friend at my last job that I still talk to. I also tried to apply for volunteer work, but so many places don't need help and have enough volunteers (I guess because of the economy too) I want to be social, but am stuck. I am 41. Where do I begin to 'make a life' being limited?? I have no family here, except for one sister, who is alway busy with her family (which I understand!!) My life has basically been the same for 10 years!! What does my future hold? How to I 'move foward'?? Any suggestions. The lonliness is too much. When someone asks me 'what is new'?? It is embarrasing that I always have nothing to say back!! I try to be a very positive person, and don't talk about my CFS/FMS to people I meet. I find myself limited to conversation though, as I am not too involved with doing things (movies and books mostly) I recently started going to a CFS/FMS support group that meets once a month (I went 3 times), but found it kind of depressing, and have not made any new friends there. I feel like that my social skills are not so good from being alone alot. I do have a boyfriend, which I am so lucky and thankful to have, but he works away from home alot. I need a life. Any suggestions on how to meet people and start over with this illness??? If I had alot of money, life would be so much easier, and I could be more active and social. Thanks for the vent, any suggestions would be appreciated. DoveL Peace.