Hi again, I have an appt with my endocrinologist next week and he usually sends me for labs for liver, cholest, etc. I have an appointment with a Lyme dr the week after I see the endocrinologist and wanted to make sure my bloodwork was done. I faxed my endo a letter this morning and I asked if he would do my blood work prior to my appt rather than after it so I would have my results. I also asked him to do thyroid including antibodies and also the cortisol a.m. test. The office called me this morning and said my slip was ready! He is in the same office building as my PCP so when I go to my PCP tomorrow I will pick up the slip. I am counting on him doing the tests I asked about. I told him about FMS, etc and he has been good in the past. I knew if I called the office that the secretaries would take it upon theirselves to deny me and never ask him. So, I addressed the fax to him and knew that they would put it on his desk! Yeah. I don't know how I am going to go to an 8.am drawing. I barely sleep by then sometimes. I am also afraid of getting in a car with my back. It is so fragile. Maybe I should wear my brace but the heat outside is scorching! I would die of sweat and heat. I am so fed up with life I cannot tell you. I am so worried about having lyme. I don't know how I will survive if I have it or some other big infection that needs attention. From all that I have read, people have a really tough time of it when they are on them. I feel so alone. I also don't know how my mother will be able to take it. I think I should check myself into a nursing home. I feel like an old lady I might as well live like one, too.