He came home at 5 am. I feel numb. Saw this coming as he has been drinking a lot. I just recently was fired as a social service asst.; and he is falling apart. My health has been very bad the last five months,ok longer than that and he can't handle it. I feel like I've let him down. I know the symtoms and how to help him but I'm to close. I'm not even sure if he cheated on me or not. He said that he didn't but so did my first husband. We can't afford to pay our bills much less counseling. I the three and a half years that I have known him,he has come a long way . My husband has so much potentual. But I almost lost him last night. I'm feeling so sick right now . I've hardly sleep in days because of back pain and now this. I do trust God but we need direction. Please pray for us. D.