My wife is struggling with Fibromyalgia. I've been trying to understand what she is going through. I try to help by giving her back rubs, foot rubs etc, every nite. I do a lotta house works to try to lessen her less physical pain. But way before she was diagnosed with fibro we had marital issues for a long time, and I blame myself, it's been mostly my fault. I've suffered from depression and panic attacks for 20 to 25 years. I'm on an MAOI (Parnate) and xanax and have been on them also for over 20 years. I know these meds have affected me negatively (personality wise) for a long time, and in turn that hurt our relationship and our marriage. Of that I feel certain. Not too long ago I realized how much I Really Do Love Her. I can't even imagine my life without her. As I said, I am trying to understand what she is going through with the fibro, and trying to ease her pain with back rubs and helping with household chores a lot. I'm wondering if the meds she is taking (Cymbalta) plus other meds before that can change a someone pyschologically and their emotions as well. I know the high dosage of xanax I was on made me a different person. I weaned the dosage down to half, and now I feel so much better. It helped me to realize that My wife is My Life. I love her with all my heart and soul but feel so helpless. I guess I need to really focus and put my health issues on the back burner, and focus completely on her. It's hard but I'm trying to do just that. I haven't done a good job of just focusing on her, but if she will let me, I'll try harder. I hurt for her because I know she is hurting so badly. All I know is that I love her with ALL of my heart,,,, All of my life. I don't think any of you out there can help, but I just felt the need to talk a little, sometimes that in itself helps. Thanks for reading my post.