Yesterday I had to get up early to take my mother to the doctor. I took her and sat in the docs office for about an hour and then went to get my hair done. I only get it done about twice a year (the color). My daughter then came to meet me and get hers done so I sat from 10 am until 6 pm in a docs office and in a salon. I started to feel worse and worse and was aching all over. I was so tired I could hardly hold my head up. I had recently been thinking maybe I should try to go back to work for about thirty hours a week after the summer is over. I had it in my head maybe I could do it now. Sitting and feeling like I did yesterday just reiterated to me that I can't work. I forget what riding for hours and being active or sitting for hours does to me. If I don't go at my own pace and get to lie around I just can't function. I start to ache, run a fever and feel fluish. I thought since I had lost all the weight possibly I might could try to get a job. Well anyway by eleven pm last night I was so tired and sick I fell into the bed. I slept from eleven pm last night until seven pm tonight. I could have slept longer, but I knew I had to get up for my own self esteem. I just talked to my husband on the phone and told him that I was sure now that I couldn't go to work after what happened yestereday. I said it just wore me out. I said that I must have Epstein Barr in addition to lupus and fms or maybe lupus is causing my severe fatigue. He started yelling and saying "you slept twenty hours!!!! You should be ashamed!" He said there was no excuse to ever sleep that long and that I should use mind over matter. I asked him why should I when I felt my body obviously needed to sleep that long and I had nothing else to do. The house is clean and he couldn't be bothered to come home because he wanted to play cards. Why should I get out of the bed. He said I should get up because it is embarrassing to sleep that long. He said that maybe my body needs the sleep, but it isn't good to let it get that sleep. He said he needs a lot more sleep than he gets but he doesn't do it. I told him he should let his body sleep if it needs it and it isn't my fault if he doesn't. I am just crying and disgusted over this. I am so sick of explainging myself to people. i am so sick of being ashamed of myself for sleeping too much. My body knows what it needs. Sorry for ranting. I just had to say something even if no one reads it.