My aunt told me tonight that my uncle, the doctor, told my mother many times over the years that I'm faking being sick and she said he was nasty about it. First of all, this "doctor" has barely seen me in my entire life. He lived upstate from where we lived, like hours and hours away. Once in a blue moon, we would see him at a relative's wedding or on some holiday, but it was rare. He is not a GP, he's a hematologist. He usually treats cancer patients. How he can dare say I'm faking it when he doesn't know me and has barely seen me in my entire life is beyond me. When I first got sick, my mother asked him to run the blood work on me. It showed the high levels of EBV and HHV6, they were so high that a doctor I went to a few months after that who saw the results said he didn't know how I was walking around at all with levels that high. I also showed autoimmune factor in my bloodwork and Hashimoto's at that time which was NOT told to me by my uncle the supposed doctor. My uncle said all my blood work was normal, which it wasn't. And he failed to diagnose my advanced Lyme. I know I shouldn't get myself so upset now, since this was way back when. But I am angry as hell. Especially since in the last two years since my mother died he has been at it again with acting like I'm mentally ill and not physically ill. He is the one with a severe mental problem, not me. I cannot fake antibodies to my own thyroid. I cannot fake that my thyroid is enlarged. I cannot fake constant fevers and a weakening of the left ventricle of my heart that was discovered at a hospital. I cannot fake an enlarged spleen or swollen glands or enlarged liver. I cannot fake sudden drops in blood pressure that do not go back up and irregular heartbeat from that. I cannot fake my low energy or dizziness. I cannot fake all the cognitive symptoms. Really, most of the time, I have the audio processing disorder and I don't understand a word that is being said to me. I have short term memory loss and forget things. Light and sound sensitivity. And I haven't even mentioned all the stomach problems with the acid reflux/GERD and sometimes the colitis like cramps. Irregular periods, too. Can I fake blood??? Or how about when I get HHV6 breakouts on the back of my tongue and I have trouble speaking from that and sometimes it actually bleeds. The list goes on. I'm probably leaving out some of my symptoms. The point is, I cannot fake these things. I would LOVE to be able to fake being healthy. I wish I could. Maybe then I could work and actually have a life. But I'm sorry, I cannot fake being healthy to please an ignorant, stupid evil family. There is no motivation for me to fake being sick. I get in a below poverty level check. I am alone, stuck housebound nearly all the time. I only leave the house to foodshop or for the occasional errand or doctor's visit. Each trip leaves me in so much pain and stiffness and fatigue and a flare that it is never worth it. I have no one to impress or whine to. I am alone with my cat, and my cat sleeps most of the time. And I'm not a whiner. I'm the type who stays alone when I don't feel well. And since I never feel well, I'm always alone. It's just so unbelievably evil, cruel and sick to accuse someone of faking their illness, particularly one as disabling as this one. I've lost everything in my life. My ability to work or go to school. Friends, dating, relatives, all gone. I've lost homes, I've just plain lost everything to this disease. Where this idiot who is supposed to be an educated doctor gets off telling the rest of my family that I'm faking being so ill, it's just unbelievable. And the worst part is, they believe him because he's the "doctor". So they follow his lead and act like I'm just nuts. I don't have anything to do with them now, but it's just really upsetting to hear about it. My aunt didn't mean to upset me tonight, but hearing about it really did.