I'm sorry but I have to vent. Some days I tell myself that I can do this...I can live like this. But today I feel like I can't. I am so confused right now that I don't know what to say. I am so overwhelmed. I can't think straight, I can't see straight. My thoughts are running so fast that I can't slow them down. I feel like my brain is going in two different directions. I am so frustrated and tired and I am only 23. I don't know what I did to deserve this. I started school again and I can't motivate myself to do anything. i can't even understand what the fuck my teachers are telling me. I can't remeber shit and sometimes I literally can't hear what they are saying. And any hour I am not at school I am working or going to the doctor or physical therapy. I can barely get through my day. I feel like I am constantly running on empty and I can't take it anymore. I am in so much pain and I am on eight different meds. My jaw hurts so bad I can hardly open it. I am seeing a psychologist at the Pain Center and I spend a shit load of money on him to tell me to breathe. Fuck the breathing. And I surrounded by family and friends who don't have the slightest clue what I am going through. I feel crazy sometimes. And especially alone. I think about my future everyday and this was not in my plan. I worry abut everything....getting a job, having a family, supporting myself. I am scared and I need to know that I can do this. I need to know that things can get better. I am trying everything. I see 3 different doctors, get trigger shots, take meds, water therapy, TENS unit, deep tissue massage, heat, ice, stretch, breathing exercises.... what more can I do? On top of that I go to a school that thinks school is my only priority. My anxiety has hit the peak and my heart is constantly racing...I just want to feel good for one day. I just want to feel like ME again. Somebody give me some words of wisdom.