I cant take any more of this physical pain

Discussion in 'General Health & Wellness' started by mybadi812, Oct 3, 2008.

  1. mybadi812

    mybadi812 New Member

    I had knee surgery in canada in feb or 2005, the suregeon told me to my face that he botched the surgery. Its bin darn close to 4 yeras now. I have attempted suicide twice because of this pain. Its like a tooth ache 5 times more that wont go away. It has effected my life, my job is suffering because of it, my friends and family are sick of my telling them the poain is too much. My GP wont send me to another specialist because I told her 2 years after the surgery that I wanted to sue the guy that screwed me up for life.
    Im not really depressed persay, I just want this god aweful pain to go away.
    Im in more pain that most people could handle for 2 weeks, try 3 and 3 quarters or years in pain.
    Ive bin on percocet, morphine, arthrotek, all that stuff does is mask the pain, when it wares off the pain is still there.
    Im heading for a 3rd time coming soon, my GP wont do anything about it other than refer me to physio, problem with that here in canada is its 45 bux a pop twice a week. I dont make 60K a year to be able to afford physio.
    I want this to end now, I cant do this anymore.
    The local crisis line, all they say is ya, uhuh, so youre in alot of pain, not much we can do for pain.
    I dont want to end my life because of what a sergeon did to me, but my GP and local supports leave me no choice. 4 years is 4 years I will never get back.
    Think of a tooth ache, think of that tooth ache 5 times over, that wont go away no matter how much pain pills you take to get rid of it. Think of that tooth ache in your knee now, could you live a life of nothing but pain and suffering for 4 years.
    Im sooooooooooo sick and tired of this everyday, every waking second. Tonight its beating the h*ll out of me. I have better desciptive words Id like to use but not here.
    I HATE this frickin pain, and Im soooo close to ending it just to stop this pain. No one in this town wants to refer me to a specialist because of what I told my GP.
    Im not depressed because I cant pay my bills, or lost my g/f, or just want sympathy from someone.
    I want to end this frickin pain now.
    Physical pain does really screwy things to your head ...
    Depressed; no. Suicidal; could happen at any given time.
    Im a really good candidate for liver failure with the amount of tylenol #1's I take trying to control this pain.
    The hard part about it is it keep telling the dr.'s the pain is being generated under the cap and everytime I say that I get these stupid looks. What options do I have, no sergeon will see me because I threatened to sue the 1st dr. that screwed me up for good and unlike the States, in Canada when you go for surgery, you sign your rights away so they're free and clear from any screwups they do, they wash their hands clean and go on to the next patient. Heh nice eh!
    I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE! the pain is too much ....
  2. TwoCatDoctors

    TwoCatDoctors New Member

    MyBad, how about talking to your GP AGAIN and bring someone with you. Explain that the pain is so bad and how about sending you to a pain management specialist. Explain you need pain relief and help and to ignore this doesn't make it go away. Please keep at them because it is vital that you get pain control. Hugs.
  3. mybadi812

    mybadi812 New Member

    Ive asked my GP to send me to Saint Pauls hospital in Vancouver as they have a pain management program, my GP wont because she says they pump you full of drugs.
    She says I need physio, heh I dont make $60,000.00 a year to be able to afford $40.00 twice a week.
    I know their is no miracle cure or pill to make this pain go away.

    I just cant do this anymore, 4 years dude, 4 frickin years.
    I dont want to take my life, but what choice do I have. Another year to get into a specialist, another 2 years for surgery, but my Dr. keeps telling me that they wont do surgery. My life as I used to know it is over. The life as I now know is all I know now. No more, enough is enough. Doctors dont care in this little town, no recommendations, no referrals, just deal with it!

    I dont know how to deal with it anymore, enough is enough.
    I dont want to end it because I have 4 cats that depend on me and as I also depend on them, but Ive run out of strenght and it just hurts so bad.
  4. mybadi812

    mybadi812 New Member

    I have the want and desire to live, I have every reason to want to live, but I dont want to wake up with this massively insane pain anymore. Its too much for me to bare down and deal with it. I cant take it anymore!
  5. TwoCatDoctors

    TwoCatDoctors New Member

    Go to the G.P. and explain your financial situation and come up with a physical therapy plan that you can afford. Many of the physical therapists want you doing exercises at home also, so you may have to go once a week and then the rest of the week work at home. But talk to the G.P. about what you can afford and tailoring a program around that. BEst of luck.