I have some mental health issues. When I was 5 my brother died,he was the oldest of 9. A few months later We had a house fire.I found out when I was 18 my brother set the house on fire, he was only 8. I have always worried.I Could barely go to school,I was afraid my mom would die or the house was on fire. There was something not right in my family. WE felt close then but why would an 8 yr old boy set the house on fire? I feel out of place. I worry about things too much! WHy did all this happen? WOuld I be normal if these events didn't happen? Write more later.