i have been here for a short time and i read the posts when i can and have seen how careing you all are, and yet i feel alful cause i mostly dont have the strength anymore to post alot, i have been sick since the 20's and i am 52 now, lived a hard life and got crohns and all the surgeries and hep c that comes w/ blood transfusions, and fibro and other auto immune stuff.... that last night my hubby found me on the floor semi concscious... i am having more fainting spells, and am getting weaker. our pharmacy bill is so high and hospital. even with insurance, its still hard to pay. i am so sick and nauseous, its like my body isjust giving up. pain is lke leaching its way thru me and i absolutly have nothing else that i can feel anymore or even think about, its like i am emotionally detaching myself from friends and family... i am at the end. i am so tired. God only knows how i am so tired of relentless pain. . i am so happy to be here with others who can really and trully understand , cause no one else does, not even the doctors, they hardly want to touch me causeof all the ilnesses i have. im sorry to be such a crier, i just need to talk toyou guys. do you ever just feel like a failier? its like if i can EVEN get a floor vacummed- its like i accomplished something... . God bless you new friends..