I finally figured out why I was so mad at the neurologist for not knowing if I have MS or not. Not that I want MS but at least I would have a recognizable reason for feeling so bad all the time that people would understand. I feel like I have an invisiable disease and that people think I am a malingerer. I see people's eyes glaze over after I talk 20 seconds about my dd's. I either hand them a brochure or say I have a chroic pain disorder. If I hear "well, you look good" or I get tired too,again I will scream. I think I will have to learn the lesson over and over again until I finally "get it" that I do have these dd's, they are real and I am still on this earth for some purpose, even on days I do nothing but sleep.