Hi All! I just had an amazing personal revelation. One thing that has been a major source of resentment since I got sick, was the glaring reality that nobody understood me. Nobody. Spending weeks on end in hospitals, made it obvious that the doctors & nurses understood least of all. My family (bless 'em) doesn't want to understand. They just want me to be well. Friends don't wanna hear about it... So I was never able to talk about it, deal with it, & get past it. My resentment grew to epic proportions. It factored into every aspect of my life. Since I wasn't acknowledging it, I wasn't fully aware of how huge & toxic it had become. Just a few minutes ago, it hit me... When I'm on these message boards, I don't feel any resentment! I mean, I'm so distracted by understanding & companionship, I forget my resentment! WOW! I haven't been resentment-free in SUCH a very long time! And I didn't even realize I had become so thoroughly resentful until after I was stuck in it. Six short days ago, I found this place & you people. I was rather tentative at first. But then, for the first time ever, I knew I was understood... I never saw this coming. I didn't know it was possible. I found a safe place! I'm sitting here typing this, in complete amazement. And I know that even if I don't say this just right, y'all understand that too. Thanks!