I feel like I need to reach out to you who know how I feel...I crashed so bad at Christmas due to pushing to get the wrapping done and a blizzard on xmas eve and xmas day....then a plummet in the temps....to below zero without adding any windchills.... I usually feel pretty awful before the middle of Dec....and don't come around until spring....like May, IF I come out of it for the summer....but this year I was feeling smug because I didn't crash....i was able to be out of bed for a few hours ata atime to do laundry andpick up the mess the kids make.... i thought it was because I started using a light box ...the kind for Season Affect Disorder...and it did give me more energy at first...now nothing helps...not my phentermine....not the light box....nothing... it hurts to type, I ache everywhere even while on a pain patch and oral pain meds....and I have ZERO energy....and i get frustrated out of my mind laying here while the house goes to shambles and the laundry piles up....and i have to talk myself into taking a bath every other day.... i just need someone to say something....just the right words to be able to find a reason to keep on doing this...it just takes one person, to give you the strength to push through to another day...does anyone have anything good to share? Here is the one that I pull out and tell myself when I need it...."At least I am here to watch my children grow up. If I had some terminal illness, I wouldn't be here to at least watch and get to put in my two cents. I am grateful to be here." Okay, it isn't cutting it today....I need a new one....Anyone?