I have lived a good life

Discussion in 'Spirituality/Worship' started by EllieBo, Oct 9, 2003.

  1. EllieBo

    EllieBo New Member

    I had a marriage of 32 years that fell apart seven years ago. Now married to my best friend and look at me I can't even stand to myself and leave the house that's like surgery without being put to sleep. Where does this get me right back the next's day wanting to know why I woke up and no place to go. I have never smoked or drank those friends seem to always have the world by the tail. My husband and his sister and husband are taking me up to St. Ingnac by the Mackinaw Bridge and to the casino. Yup just to throw money I don't have away.There is no luck there for me they see me walking in and their ready. So life is a failure to me and I just want it over soon. This pain is like an electric wire every time I move it moves. So good bye and thanks for your prayers. ellie
  2. tobyj

    tobyj New Member

    You have all of us here to help you. we all suffer and I have been where you are right now. Look to God to help you. He will help just ask. He will NOT let you down. I know right now nothing seems like it would ever make you feel better but something WILL HAPPEN AND things will be maybe just a little bit better but you just have to hold on. go talk to a clergymen and see what he/she says. and let me tell you about a very close friend of mine. she is 28 hAS cf AND ir she does not find lungs soon to replace hers she will die within the next year. She has to use o2 all the time and has a nurse come in 2 times a day to help her.she has gotten through all of this by believing in God and that He will take care of her. Please do not do anythng to hurt yourself. People love you and need you. You may not think so but they do. I love you. I have been right where you are and it is a terrible place to be,but be strong and talk to God. Please let me know how you are doing.
    Hugs and lots of love,
    Gerry
    [This Message was Edited on 10/10/2003]
  3. ValleyGirl89

    ValleyGirl89 New Member

    I am sorry that you feel so bad and feel like you have no one to turn to. I don't have much advice to give you because although I have had depression, I have not had it this severe before. I can tell you that you do have someone to turn to and that is God, He is the only one that can help you and bring you through this . I will keep praying for you and I hope that you will keep praying too, and don't stop praying! Don't give up on Him because He is there for you and if you continue in your prayers, He will lift you up.
    Hope that you will come back and let us know how you are doing.
    Lisa
  4. Sunshyne1027

    Sunshyne1027 New Member

    You have a voice of your own. If you do not wish to go to a casino to spend money, then speak up and say so. Don't worry about what others reactions will be.

    I been up to the Mackinaw bridge, and island once. At the time I had my health, but didn't enjoy it, because of the company I was around. Now with my health in bad shape..It would be so nice and refreshing to go there again..Not for the casino, but to have time alone and reflect,and enjoy what God has created.

    I hope one day you will come to a acceptance. I will be praying for you. I hope you get in a better head frame. Wish the best for you. Take care of yourself. Look to God and inside yourself for answers and comfort.

    Love~Sunshyne
  5. danny3861

    danny3861 New Member

    Ellie, Just a simple pray I have for you.

    Dear Lord, Please be by Ellies side at all times during her troubling times and hold her hand and comfort her. Give hr the strength to endure. For me ord, its as my dad said years ago after he quit drinking for good, he said son, Just take this world One day at a time. The Lord only guarantees us today. Live today at its fullest. And we all must remember the many blessings the Lord gives us each day.
    I pray Ellie that all of our prayers lets the Lords light shine in your eyes. We all care for you.

    Amen, Danny
  6. Sandyz

    Sandyz New Member

    Praying for you today. There are better days ahead. Please keep the faith!

    Hugs,
    sandy
  7. tobyj

    tobyj New Member

    I AM WORRIED ABOUT YOU. PLEASE EMAIL ME BACK SO I KNOW YOU ARE ALRIGHT. YOU WILL FIND PEACE AGAIN. TRUST IN THE LORD.
    SPECIAL HUGS,
    GERRY
  8. tobyj

    tobyj New Member

    I AM WORRIED ABOUT YOU. PLEASE EMAIL ME BACK SO I KNOW YOU ARE ALRIGHT. YOU WILL FIND PEACE AGAIN. TRUST IN THE LORD.
    SPECIAL HUGS,
    GERRY
  9. Sandyz

    Sandyz New Member

    I`m still praying for you today. Please let us know how your doing. We care and are worried about you.

    Love,
    Sandy
  10. Mikie

    Mikie Moderator

    Have you seen a pain specialist? If not, find one; if yes, find another one. It's amazing how much better life is when we are not in constant pain. I'm praying for you.

    Love, Mikie
  11. doxygirl

    doxygirl New Member

    PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let us know you are ok!!!!!!!!!
    All of who do care about you need to know your ok!!!!
    We know exactly how you feel cuz we go through these down times too!
    I just had one the other night out of the clear blue, I got so depressed and cried the whole night, they next day I felt better!( MY POST IS RIGHT HERE BY YOURS CALLED "DEPRESSED".
    I hope that you are feeling better too, but I would really appreciate it if you could leave a post to me and let me know you ok, because I worry and care about all of my fms/cfids friends here, we are like family here! I'm so glad that you came here to us, because with everyone praying for you it will make a difference!
    I want you to know I am praying for you, and your are in my thoughts!
    I hope you are feeling better Ellie!
    Love and Hugs
    Doxygirl ( Marianne )
  12. danny3861

    danny3861 New Member

    Dear Lord,

    Please send us all here a sign that Ellie is ok. We are all worried abour her, but we trust that you Lord, the almighty one, will be by her sign and guide Ellie in the right direction, which is toward you. In Jesus name,amen.

    Danny