I have never been so desperate NEED PRAYER

Discussion in 'Spirituality/Worship' started by 30feeling80, Feb 3, 2004.

  1. 30feeling80

    30feeling80 New Member

    This whole fibro thing came on very suddenly almost 4 years ago although I did not have a diagnosis until recently. I used the fibromyalgia message board as my daily support and gained much-needed information and help from the wonderful people there. This is my first time posting on the Worship board.

    My symptoms were consistant for the better part of 3 years, and quite managable I'd say. However, loss of memory (and mind function), and incredible pain has crept up on me and made life a huge challenge.

    Yesterday was my breaking point. I have been strong until now. The pain is now unmanagable and makes me mean in spite of medications that are meant to help. Yesterday I broke.

    I waited until my daughter was in school, my son was napping and I was journaling at my computer. I cried uncontrollably and found myself on my hands and knees yelling for God to help me.

    I am resentful that I am not capable of contributing to my family the way I used to. My husband deserves a wife, my children deserve their mother, and I deserve to be able to enjoy life. I am missing much of my kid's lives. I feel like we are all being robbed.

    I have a strong faith in God and read Daily Word. So listen to what happened next...

    I picked myself up off the floor, blew my nose and thru tears, tried to close out the screens on my computer. I was busy wiping tears and barely noticed a bold-print phone number on my home page. The number got larger and started flashing. In my mind I heard the words, "look...look...pay attention!" I couldn't ignore it anymore! The number was 1-800-4-prayer. I almost fell out of my chair!

    Of course I called the number. A kind voice answered, "How may I pray with you?" I don't remember what I said but this peaceful man prayed with me for nearly 30 minutes.

    He reminded me that this IS God's plan. Not punishment. There are rewards to come. He also mentioned something about someday being an inspiration to many people. I am doing exactly what God wants me to...all in his time.

    The man also helped me remember just how blessed I am. I have a loyal, loving husband, 2 beautiful well-adjusted healthy kids, sisters and their families, parents, friends ALL WHO LOVE ME.

    What more could one ask for?...Well, I ask for a little relief so I can enjoy my blessings. I hope this is not greedy. I KNOW God heard my prayers yesterday (as well as some neighbors, maybe!) I know He heard me, but I still feel so far away from Him.

    I feel like I am chasing Him and can't catch up. I know He has never abandoned me before and certainly wouldn't now, either. But I need a sign.

    Please send me some encouraging words. I need them now like never before in my life. I am no drama-mama. I am truly desperate. That's the truth.

    Thank you in advance for your time and attention. May God continue to bless you ALL.

    ~30
  2. danny3861

    danny3861 New Member

    Hello and welcome to the Worship boards,

    It certainly sounds like you are having a hard time with your life at this point. You have every right to be angry and upset. But I ask of you to continue to put you faith in the Lord. He will sustain you through it all. I'm not always the best with words, but I know this, I will be your prayer warrior, as I know many here will also.

    Dear Lord, please stay by this ladys side, let her feel your presence, lay your healing hands on this lady, and may it bring her comfort, peace, and the strength to endure. I pray also Lord for her family to continue to understand and accept her difficulties. Bring this whole family closer to you Lord as to you can guide them in their lifes. I ask all of this in Jesus name, amen.

    Danny
  3. PrayerWarrior316

    PrayerWarrior316 New Member

    Hi and Welcome to the Worship Board. I'm glad that you joined us.

    I can relate to what you are going through, Sometimes when the pain get so bad from the Fibro I also feel resentful that I'm not contributing to my family the way I have been use to doing.

    I will certainly be praying for you and your family.

    Dear Heavenly Father, I lift up 30 and I pray that you will lay your hands upon her and take her pain away. I pray that you will watch over her and give her comfort, peace and strength. Let her know that you are by her side. For it is in Jesus' name that I pray Amen and Amen.

    KEEP ON BELIEVING, KEEP ON TRUSTING, AND KEEP ON LOOKING UP TO THE LORD ! ! Blessings to you, Judy <a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/17/17_1_22.gif' border=0></a>


  4. blessings

    blessings New Member

    Fibro certainly is not a pleasant disease to have with all its insidious symptoms...I think it has helped make me more compassionate than I might not have been without it.

    I also have asked the Lord to allow me to "feel" His presence...sometimes I have, other times, I have to remember His Word-"I will never leave you nor forsake you".
    Knowing God cannot lie, and Jesus is the Way . the Truth and the Life, even though I may want to bang my head in frustration, I know that He is with me.

    I think your phone call was a great testimony to a loving God. I pray that you will indeed sense His presence in a very real way, and even in those dicouraged times, its ok, to tell Him how you feel.
    He is always faithful.

    Take care and love to you, blessings
  5. jolly

    jolly New Member

    Your telling of your experience really touched me. I've reached that exact point of hopelessness and desperation many times in the last few years. Remember Paul asking God to take away a physical affliction he had? He said he had asked God 3 times, but apparently God didn't choose to remove it. Believe me, I've prayed many more than 3 times to have mine removed!

    Like someone mentioned above I think we're stuck with this for awhile and we're gonna have bad days and worse days and be forced to appreciate every single blessing that we do have in our lives..like you talking about your family.

    You sound like you need pain meds badly. Pray for those! I'll pray for you!

    Also, please consider joining us on the chitchat board. We really do have a lot of fun and feel free to vent or cry at the same time. It helps so much emotionally to have friends that understand to just hang out with and get silly like kids. You'll be in my prayers for sure. Hope today is a good one (we do get those on occasion!). Jo Ellen
  6. Scoobsmom

    Scoobsmom New Member

    30-I will lift you up to the throne and ask for guidance for you regarding your pain. You are contributing to your family, maybe not financially, but being there as a wife and mother IS contributing! Do not let others make you feel that you are not. Hugs to you and prayers are being said for you and your family.
  7. 30feeling80

    30feeling80 New Member

    Thank you, God for the friends I have found on this worship board. Thank you for hearing our prayers.

    Everyone, I am so thankful for your kind words of inspiration. It has brought me closer to God. I feel him right with me now. Your prayers mean a lot (they are life-saving) May God continue to bless us all.

    ~30
  8. jolly

    jolly New Member

    I hope you had a better day today. This disease is nothing when you compare it to the life that awaits us. God is invisible and so is this disease. You only know it by feeling it. This may sound like a stupid analogy, but when it comes to faith, it makes sense.

    They may call us crazy, but we know we're not! Jo Ellen
  9. NewEnglander

    NewEnglander New Member

    I know the thoughts I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
    Then you will call on Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.
    And you will seek Me and find Me, when You search for with all your heart.
    Jeremiah 29; 11-13

    I know just what you are going through and thank God that you have such a loving family and I know that you will get through this, you are not alone
    Lisa
  10. 30feeling80

    30feeling80 New Member

    Yes, my prayers are being answered. Thanks to all of you for calling on God for me, and not leaving me to do it alone!

    Love,
    ~30
  11. Sunshyne1027

    Sunshyne1027 New Member

    I feel for you, understand well how you feel and are going throught. What a great blessing you found the phone number and called. That inspires me alot. I wrote the number down too, so when I feel like you did, I will call also.

    You inspired me again too, on getting the hopekeeprs group under way. It time now. Its a group I want to start in my church for bible study with scriptures and people with chronic pain conditions. How to deal with it, what God says why he puts things like this in our lives.