I am a lost cause!! Why does it even matter anymore. Why does anything even matter anymore. I just don't know. I am trying so hard but yet feel like I am getting now where. It's like I am stuck in this hole and can't get out. A dark deep hole with no light shining down. You know that there has got to be some light but you wonder where it is. Oh how I just need a glimpse. A glimpse of hope!! My faith is all I got. I yearn to be with the Lord. I ache to be with Him!! Oh when will this pain leave me. When will it end. Is this what my future has to hold. Pain and suffering. A life filled with sadness. How empty I feel.How alone I feel. Maybe this is just what I deserve. To feel like a useless mother and wife and friend. I just don't know how to pick myself back up. I am down for the count!!