My life just seems like my life is a sort of punishment, I'm not giving a sob story so please don't flame me ~ This is truly how I feel. Plain and simply, I had a crappy childhood like most people. But I thought I got through it pretty well, I decided it wasn't going to affect my choices now. I did everything the way you're supposed to do it, I got married, had the house, had the babies etc. But everyday it was a struggle, my marriage started to have problems after the first baby was born. Abusive behavior started, but I stood by my man. As far as I was concerned I made vows before G-d, and thought I should be able to endure anything. For better or worse is what I said, but it just kept getting worse never better. I eventually left with my children, and a court order to keep him away from us. Forward 4 years ahead. I am now living with a man I don't love, I have two of his children. Now the abuse I live with is Verbal instead of physical. I pray all the time for guidance out of these types of situations, but it just doesn't seem to be working. I'm either not asking the right things or I'm being ignored. I realize the final steps are up to me, but I need G-ds guidance to put me in the right direction. please help, what can I do to be heard?