I just need someone to say "I care"

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by CountryRocker, May 23, 2006.

  1. CountryRocker

    CountryRocker New Member

    I just need someone to say they care today. I feel like I've lost me and don't know where to find me. I'm crying and should feel blessed instead. There's so much good in my life, but so much lousy stuff too. I am so sick of health tests and health problems that I just want to run away. But where would I run TO?
    I guess I'm running here.
    Sorry, this post is a real downer :(
  2. onlythestrong

    onlythestrong New Member

    We all have those days when everything seems lost,you will be ok and this too will pass!
    Take care and big hug,
    Mary
  3. Strawberry94

    Strawberry94 New Member

    I am sorry you are feeling so down. I get there too at times.
  4. usanagirl

    usanagirl New Member


    I care!!

    Love,
    Dena
  5. UnicornK

    UnicornK New Member

    You're in the same boat as the rest of us. You are not alone. This is the best place to run to.

    I don't have any magic words to say, only that I can emphasize with you because I go through the same things too.

    One day I'm up. Next day I'm down.

    One day this hurts. Next day that hurts.

    Humor helps. Surrounding yourself with nontoxic people helps. Anything you can do to relax will help, be it curling up with a good book, taking a long soaking bath, or just making a place for you and you alone.

    You will get alot of advice here. Listen to it. We are all here for the same reason, and some of us have experience, and some of us even have knowledge (right Stormy? LOL).

    We're here. Don't give up.

    God Bless.
  6. kbak

    kbak Member

    Countryrocker,
    I would dare say that everyone here has felt that way at one time or another. I understand so well knowing I'm blessed, and yet some days I feel like I've been s--t on.

    I think it is especially hard because very few people understand what this DD is like. Weather it's fibro or chronic fatigue, people don't see you as being "really sick".

    We want to feel validated, and that's so elusive. Plus this DD really skrews up our whole system, so it's hard to feel emotionally level everyday.

    I run away in my head all the time!! If I was to run away, it would be to someplace warm with a great beach.

    I hope tomarrow's a better day for you!

    Hugs,
    K.
  7. kaiasmom

    kaiasmom New Member

    In the caring group, I mean. Take care of yourself. This too shall pass - I always feel better somehow, someday.

    Leanne
  8. CountryRocker

    CountryRocker New Member

    Thanks for the helpful advice and for caring. You made a really lousy day a little bit easier to take.
  9. morningsonshine

    morningsonshine New Member

    I Care, and God cares.

    Sorry you are feeling lousy, those day are tuff.

    But we are here.
  10. Ranigar

    Ranigar Member

    We've all been where you are but know that we understand better then anyone and wish you to get past it to a good day as soon as possible.Just be as kind to yourself as you can rest,relax and try not to stress.
  11. livin4him

    livin4him New Member

    know how you feel. This dd is very isolating. What has helped me recently is just to stop and get my mind off of it. So I have been watching some new shows about the soldiers. I watched one last night called Baghdad ER and it was so heart wrenching to see what those guys are going through. It kind of put my sickness into a new perspective. Also, the new one about the letters to home. Both of these are on HBO, don't know if you have, but it really helped me. Reminded me of how blessed I am.

    For me it's tough, I have been sick for 11 years now, the last 5 housebound and each day brings on new symptoms or just brings up old ones. I have been to new doctors lately who don't know anything about cfs (although they were on a cfs list) and sometimes you just want to scream or give up.

    I don't know, but it helped to take my mind off of me. I feel so sorry for the families of the soldiers who have been victims in this thing called war.

    Hope you get to feeling better.
  12. mistyd96

    mistyd96 New Member

    I don't post all that much, but I come here alot for the information, the companionship, and just to know when I am feeling like poo that there are others who are along for the ride withme. I see some worse than me and some beter than me.

    This DD takes such a toll not only physically but mentally as well. My best advice is to take each day in and of itself. And remember that although this DD is lifelong, it ebbs and flows.

    Misty
  13. quest390

    quest390 New Member

    I care. I know exactly how you feel. I think we all do. Stay strong and stay tough.
    "It cant rain all the time"
  14. kalina

    kalina New Member

    I can so relate to how you are feeling today. It's easy to feel "lost" in this illness.

    We all get down sometimes, and there's nothing wrong with acknowledging that and posting about it. Don't be sorry. That's one of the reasons we're here.

    I hope your day is just a little bit better knowing we are here, and we do care about you.

    Kalina
  15. carebelle

    carebelle New Member

    I made up my name after a care bear and belle after belle in beauty and the beast. get it Carebelle
    I do care ,we all do I hope you feel better you can always laugh at my name :)
  16. dleaning

    dleaning New Member

    Hang in there countryrocker....there will be days like this. Tomorrow is another day and hopefully a better one for you. I have had many days like this and yes, it seems like it is the end of the world. Just talking to someone does make a difference, that is why we are all here, for each other!!!

    Dawn
  17. Cromwell

    Cromwell New Member

    I care. I am sorry you are down. I hope tomorrow is better for you.

    Love Anne C
  18. kriket

    kriket New Member



    I have been feeling down in the dumps lately too. I know what you are describing and it's the pits. I am sending some cheer your way. Hope you are feeling better soon.


    Kriket
  19. CountryRocker

    CountryRocker New Member

    Thank you so much for caring.
    If any of you believe in prayer could you say one for me? It looks like I have something much worse than fibro and I have to be tested for it. All signs show that this test is going to come back bad and I hate feeling this scared. I know God can turn anything around so I'm hanging on to that.
    I left my doctor's office Friday after she told me she was going to schedule this test and also get me to a specialist to help the fibro. Saturday morning the mailman was at my door with a certified letter saying my doctor is firing me as a patient and I have a 30 day period where she'll still see me. That was like getting kicked in the heart.
    I don't know why she did it and the letter didn't say.
    I felt pretty much alone before I got the letter, but after it is an even worse feeling. I don't know if she scheduled the test at the hospital or what's going on so I made an appointment to see her tomorrow morning. It really angers me to think that I have to throw away all that money for a doctor visit on her to find this out.
    I need a time out of the madness. I guess I need to feel like I'm not so alone too.
    I remember how I used to be and see me now. I want that person back. I like her and want to feel good in my heart again. I can deal with pain in my body (for the most part), but pain in my heart is just so hard.
  20. kriket

    kriket New Member



    I will remember you in my prayers. I hope everything turns out ok for you. Sounds like you are going through a real tough time and no wonder you need to hear someone say they care. Try to not worry too much. Hugs!!!


    Kriket