I JUST NEED TO VENT RIGHT NOW

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by nanny, Sep 30, 2002.

  1. nanny

    nanny New Member

    WELL MY PAIN LEVEL TODAY IS ABOUT AS BAD AS IT CAN GET!!! I KNEW BEFORE MY FEET EVEN HIT THE FLOOR IT WAS GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE DAYS. I WAS HOPING TO BE ABLE TO RETURN TO WORK TOMORROW. HAVE ALREADY BEEN OUT FOR 10 DAYS. THAT IS 10DAYS THIS LAST BOUT. THE FIRST WEEK OF SEPT.I ONLY WORKED 2 DAYS,THE FOLLOWING WEEK I WORKED 3 DAYS THE WEEK AFTER THATONLY 1 DAY. BILLS ARE JUST GETTING BIGGER & BIGGER!!!! I HAVE NO FAMILY. MY MOM & DAD BOTH PASSED YOUNG. MY MOM HAS BEEN GONE JUST A YEAR THIS MONTH SO THAT HAS BEEN ON MY MIND ALOT LATELY. I HAVE A 10YEAR OLD AT HOME & HE JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK RIGHT NOW.WELL I GUESS I DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GOING BACK TO WORK TOMORROW.MY SUPERVISOR JUST CALLED & SAID THAT BECAUSE OF MY HEALTH PROBLEMS THEY FEEL IT IS BEST THAT THEY REPLACE ME WITH SOMEONE WHO CAN BE THERE ALL THE TIME.I REALLY DIDNT NEED THIS RIGHT NOW. I WAS SERVED A 3 DAY EVICTION NOYICE THIS MORNING.NOW WHAT??? I THINK I SHOULD JUST CURL UP IN A CORNER & GO TO SLEEP. WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER????SORRY FOR RAMBELING ON I REALLY SHOULDNT BE BOTHERING EVERYONE WITH MY TROUBLES. I JUST REALLY NEEDED TO VENT.

    SORRY FOR RAMBELING
    NANNY
  2. nanny

    nanny New Member

    WELL MY PAIN LEVEL TODAY IS ABOUT AS BAD AS IT CAN GET!!! I KNEW BEFORE MY FEET EVEN HIT THE FLOOR IT WAS GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE DAYS. I WAS HOPING TO BE ABLE TO RETURN TO WORK TOMORROW. HAVE ALREADY BEEN OUT FOR 10 DAYS. THAT IS 10DAYS THIS LAST BOUT. THE FIRST WEEK OF SEPT.I ONLY WORKED 2 DAYS,THE FOLLOWING WEEK I WORKED 3 DAYS THE WEEK AFTER THATONLY 1 DAY. BILLS ARE JUST GETTING BIGGER & BIGGER!!!! I HAVE NO FAMILY. MY MOM & DAD BOTH PASSED YOUNG. MY MOM HAS BEEN GONE JUST A YEAR THIS MONTH SO THAT HAS BEEN ON MY MIND ALOT LATELY. I HAVE A 10YEAR OLD AT HOME & HE JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK RIGHT NOW.WELL I GUESS I DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GOING BACK TO WORK TOMORROW.MY SUPERVISOR JUST CALLED & SAID THAT BECAUSE OF MY HEALTH PROBLEMS THEY FEEL IT IS BEST THAT THEY REPLACE ME WITH SOMEONE WHO CAN BE THERE ALL THE TIME.I REALLY DIDNT NEED THIS RIGHT NOW. I WAS SERVED A 3 DAY EVICTION NOYICE THIS MORNING.NOW WHAT??? I THINK I SHOULD JUST CURL UP IN A CORNER & GO TO SLEEP. WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER????SORRY FOR RAMBELING ON I REALLY SHOULDNT BE BOTHERING EVERYONE WITH MY TROUBLES. I JUST REALLY NEEDED TO VENT.

    SORRY FOR RAMBELING
    NANNY
  3. marinemom

    marinemom New Member

    Feel free to ramble on all you want. I've done my share here too, just as all of us have.

    I'm so very sorry for the problems that have come your way. I know that I tend to want to sleep the day away, just to avoid the pain and problems here too.

    Call Social Services or better yet, go in as a "walk-in" and try to get some assistance. You might have to sit there awhile, but you will be seen that day!

    Wish I could help you more. I know about kids. My 12 yo is still trying to figure out why Mom doesn't get dressed half the time!

    I keep telling myself that when a door slams, God ALWAYS opens a window somewhere. My only hope is that I'll have the strength (or ladder) to climb through!!! =)

    My prayers are with you.
    Kathy
  4. sean

    sean New Member

    I'm getting closer to the stage, where I am going to lose my job, that will have the knock on effect of me losing my house, causing me a lot of stress, and making me worse. I will probably have to look for some low paid light work job, and hope I can manage it, and hope I can afford to pay the mortgage on a lower wage. Ive never been in debt in my life, and I hope it will never come to that, but it looks more and more likely. I thought I had a secure career, but you never figure on getting somethimg like this. Even if I had health insurance I'm not sure it would be a help because there is too much negetivity surrounding CFS/FMS.
  5. blondieangel

    blondieangel New Member

    Please gather up all your strength and get some financial aid/assistance/counsling through the government programs - call any and all - there are people/agencies out there to help you. Pick up your phone book and do it NOW!
    Good Luck, hope things get better soon...
  6. lindasue

    lindasue New Member

    Oh Nanny,
    I wish I could help. I just read your bio and you're in NY...I'm in Calif. But prayers reach God no matter were we are!! I'll pray for you and you just Let God do the work! You need to call unemployment and get that started right away along with disability!!! I'm in property management and I don't know the NY laws but I do know that you will NOT be locked out from your place for at least 30 to 60 days. And perhaps something will happen in the mean time that will turn everything around.
    Keep writing (venting) on the message board and if you need someone to email here is my address dlindasue1@aol.com.
    I thank God all the time for all of you and I pray I can give back some of what you all are giving to me.
    God bless you and your son,
    Love and soft hugs,
    Linda
  7. Hidn

    Hidn New Member

    Nanny,
    I am so sorry for all your troubles, ((((((((((hugs to you))))))))))) I know exactly what you are going through, I have had to declare bancruptcy, lost my home to forclosure, my car everything. The most important thing is to call your local social services. they have emergency help for people who need it.
    Please hang in there , I think we have all vented here at one time or another. I know I have and everyone here understands.
    Denise
  8. contessa

    contessa New Member

    I agree it's so frustrating to have something wrong with us and most people think we're making it all up. I almost wish my company would fire me. Since they don't believe I'm sick I'd file for unemployment and use that as an excuse. Are you eligible for unemployment. Also check with social services. I live in Wisconsin and here they have a lot of housing available for people with kids and limited income. They're really nice apartment buildings and rents are based on income and need. I've done the social services thing when I first got sick ten years ago. Unfortunately, also here in WISC what you are eligible for depends on the county you live in. Some have better benefits, more money, etc. Others have less. I guess it depends on the tax base or something. Immediately check with your local mental health freebies, you're going to need the emotional support. I hope your friends stick by you. Don't let pride stand in your way. This is survival of your family unit you're fighting for.

    I'm also the last of my family line and our house goes into foreclosure next week, vehicles up for repo, and we just came out of bankruptcy so we have no more court protection avail. I don't wish financial/emotional disaster on anyone (well maybe on my non-paying disability insurance people). Believe, above all, believe you will get through this and see better days. You have a lot of caring people here with the same problems. Keep in touch.
  9. jpswife_4boys

    jpswife_4boys New Member

    Hugs Nanny! I will be keeping you and your son in my prayers!

    Lots of Hugs,
    Crissie
  10. lisjhn

    lisjhn New Member

    Curl up for a moment to rethink your situation. I know, it sucks. Most of us have been there. But it will get better. I'm sorry you are going through this right now, it always seems to hit at the most inopportune moment , huh!

    Curl up with paper and pen and write out your game plan. That's what I've been doing pretty much all year. I had to file bankruptcy in July, haven't worked since December, applied for disability through DSHS and Social Security, had to await the many apointments with specialists, but now I'm a bit less stressed, only 'cos I know there's nothing more I can do about it. Just found out I have to move out of my boyfriends house (we are not getting along) and I'm supposed to be looking for another place to live. Hmmm...kinda hard with just filing bankruptcy and all those credit checks. I'll need to pay 6 months rent just to move into these apartments close to me since I don't have a job and my disability doesn't quite cover the rent and bills. Don't know where I'll get the extra money to live, but something always comes up for me. When one door slams in my face another door ALWAYS opens!!

    Just remember this is all happening for a reason. Perhaps go to your DSHS office when you feel better. I got my food stamps on the same day even. I just sent my social worker a card because she helped me sooooo much and with all the seeming useless doctor's appointments I've had, I'm not used to someone actually wanting to help!

    Good luck on your journey. Sometimes we all have to start from scratch again.

    ~LISA
  11. blast

    blast New Member

    I am so sorry for your problems and for your child. I too have kids 3 and 11, and they are doing much better than a year ago. My therapist says children of disabled parents tend to become more independant, are more able of finding resources for themselves and are closer to their parents, even if it takes sometime.
    My hubby had been out of work and is disabled,as am I, and we have had no income for over a year.
    Today I got word that we will be receiving disability in about 60 days. The people in the office felt bad for me bacause I have to wait 60 days, or more, because of the legal fees and some other petty stuff. My comment was at least we got it rolling. We've been waiting this long what's 60 days? The bill collectors will just have to wait and understand. (we applyed over a yr and a half ago).
    Try real hard to put your chin up and remember that you are not the only one in this predicament, even if it feels that way. I would do anything for you that I could, cuz I know what it feels like to have no one. My huuby's sister is the only thing that has kept us afloat. She paid our rent for us when all of our saving was gone and that went fast. There are a lot of agencies out there that will help you just have to search.
    Is there anything I can do for you?
    Please just ask I know what you are going through first hand and I am glad you came here to vent!!
    Blast (sherri)
  12. dd

    dd New Member

    Hi Nanny - You go right ahead and vent whenever you need to. We are here to listen and try to help if we can.

    Like others have said, go and apply for unemployment right away and any other social services that you may be eligible for.

    I am sending hugs and prayers your way.

    Debbie
  13. nanny

    nanny New Member

    I JUST WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU FORALL THE RESPONSES& ENCOURAGEING WORDS. I AM SO GLAD I FOUND THIS BOARD!!! IT SEEMS REAL GOOD TO KNOW THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO UNDERSTAND. IT HAS BEEN A ROUGH 8 YEARS KNOWING THAT ANYONE I TALK TO LOOKS AT ME LIKE IM CRAZY & HAS NO UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. I TRUELY BELIEVE THAT WE HAVE A HARD TIME COPING BECAUSE PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND. WHEN I WAS TOLD 2 YEARS AGO THAT I HAD CANCER & HAD TO HAVE A HYSTORECTOMY I FOUND THAT EAISER TO DEAL WITH THEN THE FIBRO.THE ANSWER TO THAT WAS ALSO REALLY PRETTY SIMPLE SURGERY ,RADIATION & NOW CANCER FREE FOR 2 YEARS.SURE WISH THERE WAS A SIMPLE ANSWER FOR ALL OF US WHO SUFFER THIS PAIN EVERY DAY.THINGS ARE A LITTLE BETTER TODAY THEN THEY WERE THE OTHER DAY FOR ME & AGAIN I WANT TO THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT & PRAYERS.I WILL TRY TO ANSWER ALL OF YOU SEPERATLY TOMORROW .BUT FOR TONIGHT THANK YOU ALL AGAIN ((((( HUGS TO YOU ALL )))))
    NANNY
  14. Rea

    Rea New Member

    Get all the help you can get from social agencies. Ask questions, questions, questions if you can't find what is available. There is a lot out there and there are people who want to help. You are not alone!
  15. PaulMark

    PaulMark New Member

    nanny: never apologize for venting, we all do, actually i feel more comf. venting it's often so personal it seems due to the trials and trib. of cfs/fms to some close friens on net and on a christ. site, too, even though i was raised in the church i am only weak and human and am really struggling with where answers are when we please for relief,

    if you feel conmfortable you may vent to me if you like, i live alone and can always need a friend to vent to and it makes me feel worthwhile to listen and emphatize, especially since i mostly homebound at 49 with this ill. and pretty much debilitated by it for 5 yrs. now

    god bless you and i'll pray

    paul mark
    paulstory@iolky.com