Never felt so depressed and hopeless in my life. I know this isn't how I usually post, but the last 24 hours have been horrible. Pain, arguing with my husband (which we never do), taking too many pills last night - I just wanted to sleep, sleeping all day and continuing to argue with my husband when I woke up this afternoon. I'm very scared and don't know what is happening. My husband wanted to call 911 last night but said he wouldn't if I told him what pills I had taken. I really had only taken a couple of pain pills and a couple of sleeping pills. I do not want to die - I just want this crap to be over. I started crying this afternoon after my husband made us some pancakes and we didn't have any milk to drink because we have no money. Every time I think about my kids (27 and 30) I start crying. My husband left a little while ago to go to work. He'll be there until 11 pm. I asked him to take all of the pills out of the house and he freaked. At least I recognized the potential - although I really don't think I would do anything because I have felt so cruddy all day (when I was awake). I feel like I need help but I'm afraid to go to the hospital or something. I just don't know what would happen. I'm afraid they would make me stay and I don't think I could handle that. At this point, I'm not sure what I CAN handle. My back hurts today and my kidneys hurt. I have read enough other posts to know I'm not the first to feel this way and I've probably left encouraging posts for those people. But now it's me, and I'm scared. I'm scared to tell my husband how I realy feel. I didn't want him to go to work this evening but I didn't want to tell him because I was afraid he's get all porky about it and say something like, "OK, fine...I'll call in." THEN, on top of being in pain, and depressed, I'd feel guilty. My head really hurts. Can someone, anyone, please help me?