My life is falling apart from the inside out, and there seems to be nothing I can do about it. I can not control what is happening to me and my family is falling apart. I have no idea if this forum is active, and I have no idea if im even in the right spot. I stopped working In april of 2005 from my carreer. I had no choice. I had fought flu like symptoms for what seems like an eternity, and I could deal wih it. Along with the constant flu like symptoms, my skin and underlying muscles have for many years turned deep red in many places on my body, and constantly itch. Not a slight Itch, but to the point that I use something hard(such as a fork or a Key) to try to relieve the Itch. This comes and goes, and when present seems to move (on one finger and my palm, then on next finger and wrist, then on my head and feet, etc. It cycles over my body). When the Itch is prevalent, so is this thing that I can't explainn but to say it feels like I am dying of the Flu. Then it goes away for awhile, and years ago I thought that it was in fact that I caught an extreme Number of Flu's and colds. I dealt with these symptoms, although People always looked at me as "the guy that always calls off sick" In April 2005 I went to work Normally. Painting of the inside of a controlled access building was required (not my normal Job - I was in corrections) so I volunteered. Seemed to me it would be a nice break from my regular workday. I worked hard to get it done as much as possible so the next shift would have less to worry about. At the end of the day I could barely walk - seemed to me to be abnormal - but i didn't think twice of it. That was my last day on what was a promising carreer. I spent three weeks trying to recover from from that one night painting. I could walk, but my muscles felt like jelly, and I stepped slowly as my Knees shot lightning bolts of pain through my knee's on every step( not the frst time with this pain, I had felt it before, after running). I started a Loooong and worthless voyage to doctors to find out what my problem was. My primary care physician at first ran all of the appropriate tests, checking all my labs finely for everything possible. I was sent to an allergy specialist and had a few allergies, but as he put it "nothing at all that explains your symptoms". Then my primary care physician started to lose interest in the matter, after exhausting all of the tests and labs. He finally sent me to a Rheaumotoligist. This appointment was the most miserable experience in my life. He told me that he believed that I had Fibromyalgia after a few minutes of chart reading and deliberation. He then proceeded to run me out of his office, and did not give me a diagnosis. He told me a Diagnosis would be futile, and that I should learn to live with my problems. I asked about treatment, and he told me to get back with my Pcp. I scheduled an Appointment with my Pcp - and he called back and cancelled, without setting a further date. I tried and tried to set another appointment and when I finally got one, he saw me - 4 hours late for my 8am apointment. i waited there all day. When he saw me , he would not look in my eyes, seemed very distracted and told me that Fibromyalgia did not exist, That I was probably a lazy person with stress. I did not go back to that doctor. In fact, I gave up on doctors altogether. I waited until I was a little better and got another job - I worked it for 5 1/2 months until I could not go any more. I then got another job, that lasted all of a week. I work a few days and then I am so weak iI can barely walk or stay awake. Whats worse, my wife is furious. She also does not believe that I am sick (Although the Deep red Itchy bruising on my body makes her believe I have allergies- which the allergy specialist says is in no way related to allergies). She is on the verge of leaving me, we are in the preliminary stages of losing everything we have worked for as we can no longer pay all of our bills, and the only thing I can think of doing is getting another job. But I feel as if i have the Flu again, and I cannot seem to get up and go anywhere much less to find a job that will save us from the position we are in. My muscles are weak, I feel like sleeping constantly, My head spins with nausea, and I am so depressed that I havent a clue as to what next. this story of my miserable wrecked life is for one reason, I ask here because I have no where else to go. Is what ive explained anything close to Fibromyalgia, and if so what can I do? Excersize makes it worse (way worse, even walking now makes me fell horrible). And if so, What next? Please god what next?