maybe I should post this on the depression board. I'm sliding quickly. Even my therapist is "frustrated", although I'd call it outright angry. I just took an unplanned overnight trip to the beach (3hrs away) alone. I don't do things like that...I'm terrified of leaving home. I made sure my pets were cared for, set up reservsations on-line, packed and within an hour I was gone. It was a great break to smell that salt air and stick my feet in the waves, not to mention having the heated pool all to myself at 1am, but I'm back and feeling worse than ever. I just feel bad and don't know what to say or do to help myself.