Dear everyone, Thanks for your prayer. I think this is the first time I write something POSITIVE here. I'm so sorry I kept posting messages about my faith negatively before. In fact my situation hasn't really changed, still suffering from anxiety and depression, difficult finance situation, lonely...etc. But I pray alot. I used to pray only once a day (I was under so much stress and lack of faith at that period of time), now I almost pray about five times a day. I didn't complain to God (maybe sometimes I doubt His intention, but not much). I feel quite comfortable to talk to HIM. I hope I can grip this feeling tightly. I really hope this is a positive sign on my faith. I still think my future is hopeless. But at least not helpless, I can pray. I also hope one day when I gain back my dignity, I can make a testimony confidently to other people. Please continue to pray for me. PS. I pray alot for Joyfully. May God bless her and take away her pain. And I also pray for Pepper's husband to get a good job. Trust me, I know how it feels for not having a job. And everyone is in my prayer.