Do you all have problems with dealing with years of ignored pain?? I am having alot of problems dwellling on being ignored for so long!! I am a kind sincere person but seem to have a problem with forgiveness-grudges. Numerous trips to the er with terrible pain mostly girdle type pain across midle of chest went undiagnosed.They gave me shots for pain. Out the door. Now one time after the er doc called my GI doctor and he said to send me home, I pitched a fit. I am not the most assertive person around. This was a big step for me. I satated "THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME" The er doc called my GI doc back and they admitted me. did a cat scan anfd found a verntral hernia and had surgery. Then a couple of times I had pancreatitis and was admitted. But so many times They could find nothing wrong. The last time I was at er was June of 2003, the er doc almost got in my face and said "It costs hundreds of dollars to run tests" can you believe that. I then informed him I was seeing a new internist and maybe he could figure out what was going on with me. Well he did in about 2-3 visits. I have not been back to er for 2 years- My doctor told me not to go to ER as they were not diagnostitians!!!!! He told me the docs at er call him often because they are stumped!!! This doctor i see is one of the top 100 docs in Oklahoma and he is a keeper. I think all this ignored pain really messes up your central nervous system. I am on 300 mgm effexor daily and it is for depression but also pain control. My doctor says usually after two years on this, it helps to re regulate your central nervous system to deal with pain in a normal way. So I have a real hard time forgiving the medical community for not giving me any real answers. I also went from doctor to doctor. I am a very intuitive person and knew something wasn't right for so long. My first symptom was exhaustion after walking in the park. I would complain to doctors and they would just look at me!!!My doctor tells me that I have been validated now!! well it is just many years to late!!! I also had numerous surgeries, to calm my pain!! I also lost my career in nursing which I loved. I am only 58 and to young to be on ssdi!!! Thanks for listening and would love to hear your imput. How do I learn to forgive??? I is a hard thing for me. This board is wonderful. I learn so much from all of you. I cherish this place. It is a soft place to fall!!!